Just Random Crap Two

Thoughts

     I used to be a happy gal,
I'd be your best amazing pal,
But it wilted like a flower,
My thoughts taking power,
Until only ash remained

     'Am I too annoying?
Am I a burden?
Do you hate me?
Why does everyone hate me?
Am I too clingy?
Do they think I'm weird?'

     My thoughts define who I am,
Controlling every part of my life,
Forced smiles and many times have I been met with a knife to the back

     Betrayal and war,
That's all I see,
It stares right at me,
My smile is fake,
My life just makes me dead inside

     I have these thoughts every sunrise to sunset,
My tears that I wish would come are nonexistent,
Because I am numb

     My thoughts destroyed me,
And could destroy anything too,
So don't let your thoughts swallow you

Authors note:
     This is a mess, I know. But it's like 1 AM and I don't feel like being super neat. I just needed to get things off of my chest in the best way I know how. Through a poem! So anyway, bye guys!