I'm tired of walking unknowingly in the dark
Listening to the voice in my mind contradicting the beat in my heart
Looking for a bit of hope, some certainty from the light of the Streetlamps
Maybe the hear from it could protect me from the cold, the rain and endless damp
That you caused
I know it won't work but it will ease my pain in my heart's core
Hurting from the truth that I'm never gonna get my brother back anymore
So angry that I could release it all on you with my fists
It's only my love for you is making that urge resist
So many sad emotional faces in happy places caused by your actions
Dividing the family we knew into fractions
Trying to keep us together while we are all collapsing
Trying to find all the positives from the negatives that are happening
Making us all hurt and involved in your problems, making us feel like we are tied up and trapped in
But when I spoke with you last, it was like you but you wasn't there
You were blind to our feelings, it's like you didn't care
It's so sad that you could lose someone you love in front of your eyes
Saying to you that they will change, even if they know themselves it's all lies
You try to keep them together, but no matter how tightly you hold
They'll let you go and run back to their bad ways and lose control
The moment we last met, we were full of laughter's and cheers
It's like I forgotten the meaning of our all our fears and cried out tears
The ones that have been around us throughout the dragged out years
It's like all the dread and bad times were forgotten
Those times that made us feel so down and so rotten
But deep down I knew it was all white lies, no matter how I tried to deny.
You were thinking about the next time you were gonna get high
Completely closing out your brother's, sister's, kids and parents lives
You pushed us and closed us all away
Going down hill and taking class A, might as well engrave your name on your own stone cold grave
The worst thing is you can't see the drugs you take hurt and abuse you
The people who sell you it are the ones that hurt and use you
Maybe I'm seem as being overprotective but I'm the one that doesn't want to lose you
Now you leave me walking alone in the dark
With the voice in my mind contradicting the beat in my heart
Looking for a bit of hope, some certainty from the light of the Streetlamps
Maybe the hear from it could protect me from the cold, the rain and endless damp
That you caused
It hurts more now, cause I don't know what to feel about you anymore
All I do is stop and watch your heavy rain fall
Over the graffiti we sprayed together all over the wall
Each word and image described our strong hopes and dreams
Each detail reminded of who we were and who we wanted to be
But can't you see, your constant rain has washed it all away
Like everything we were, your actions destroyed us all in some way
From the words you said and you want to say, from the drugs and substances you still take
I'm worn out from this hurt and pain, it's time to wash out the rest of the spray paint
And redo it without you in my life, realising it's time to push you away
But when I spoke with you last, it was like you but you wasn't there
You were blind to our feelings, it's like you didn't care
It's so sad that you could lose someone you love in front of your eyes
Saying to you that they will change, even if they know themselves it's all lies
You try to keep them together, but no matter how tightly you hold
They'll let you go and run back to their bad ways and lose control
