Forever Alone

Chapter 5

"Katzmin!Come down.It's already 6:00"

"I'm coming!"

"Hurry up!"

"Just a min."

"Be sure it just a min."

"Yes ma"

After a min. we go downstair

"Hi ma!Goodmornin!"

"Morning.Eat your breakfast"

"Ma I'm not eating a breakfast......I need to go ma.Bye"

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"Max lets go"

"I also notice"said max

While I'm getting my notebook in locker

"Notice what?"

"If what you've notice yesterday"

"For me to know for you to find out thingy?"

"Yeah"

We're now seating in the floor in front of our classroom

"And what you've notice today"

"She change"

"So how you notice that she change?"

"Simple because I talk to her a while a ago and I notice that she is not like that"

"Yeah right"

"So what's your plan?"

"Nothing"

"What!?"

"Is her choice.If she want to be like that fine be like that.And I'll be like also what I want"

"What do you mean?"

"She is not my friend so I'm not going with her unless she's back"

"So our barkada is gonna be broken?"

"She broke our barkada.Yesterday,when she was change.It means she broke our barkada"

"How can you say that she want to broke our barkada?"

"Because we promise to each other that no one leave.But she leave us.Yes she's here but only physical"

"We can talk this problem.Please fix this.We can fix this"

"She is the one who broke our barkada so she is also the one who need to fix this"

"No katzmin not only her who broke our barkada.YOU,you also broke our barkada.You choice to broke this.You choice to let broke this.You choice to give up immediately.You choice to don't make a move to fix this problem.You are not thinking what can you,we do to fix this"

"Don't say that!You don't know what I suffer now!That's not only my problem.I have many problem that need to solve immediately.You don't know what I've suffer.It's hard to think the solution in ALL MY PROBLEMS.Particularly I'm only the person,I'm only who make move to solve to think the solution in ALL MY PROBLEMS.Even in ALL MY PROBLEMS it's not MY PROBLEMS.

And after that I go to our classroom

Same routine

Greet here greet there

Discuss here discuss there

Answer here answer there

Eat here eat there

They laugh here they laugh there

They talk here they talk there

And again

That is the routine here in the school

"Lar are you ok?"

Here we go again.I manage my smile to stop worrying my bestfriend

I heard leen was sigh

To all that talked/talking to me I only I do is smile.

"Leen I'm going now"

"Ha?Your not going with us?"

"I need to go home"

"Wait a min."

"Leen I really need to go home.Sorry I can't wait them.If you want to go with me,ok lets go but if you want to go with them,it's ok but I can't wait them so I'm going now.Bye"

"Lar----"

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I didn't saw my mother in living room either in dinning and kitchen so I go upstair

I do my ritual when I'm from school.

I take a bath and wear a simple short and sando.I blower my hair to dry

After that I open my laptop and I sign in my twitter,facebook,wattpad and in other website.

I get my diary and I wrote there all what happened to me.

Sellia Leen Cascardo Calling

"Hello?"

"Lar what happened?"

"Ha?"

"Why you act like that a while ago?"

"I told you I need to go home"

"And why?"

"B-Because my mother said"

"Really?"

"Y-yes"

"And why?"

"I don't know"

"Lar"she said with death tone

"Bye leen"

*end call*

"*knock knock*katzmin are you there?"

"Yes ma.Come in"

"Hi ma"

"I didn't know that your here already"

"You need something???"

"Nothing.I want to talk to you,have bonding with you.I remember our last bonding when we went EK and that's last year happened."

I don't know what I'm gonna say so I decide to be quite

"Katzmin anything problem?"

I want to say yes I have problems but "Nothing ma"

'But why you're so quite?"

"Nothing"

"Katzmin if I'm not going ----"

"I don't know ma"

I cut what my mama want to say because I know what my mama trying to ask

After that we have lots of topic that we tackeld and I miss that.I miss the momment that I open up with my mom.I miss our bonding.Yes this is simple but for me it is big because my mom has time for me again.I'm so happy.So I sleep with a big smile in my lips.This day is unforgettable for me.

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~26Alone~