Suicidal Girls

Part 4: Emotionally Damaged

I'm thinking about suicide. More insanely than usual. It confused me. Sure I just wanted to slit my wrists, but there was something else to it. I wanted to kill everyone. The boys would snigger if I walked by. I knew why. It was cause I'm Goth. I wore black eye shadow with black lipstick. My eyelashes black with mascara. I would roll my eyes and walk off. They would call me a little saddo and laugh loudly. I would keep my head down. They didn't know what was going on. I would stare ahead, with my earphones plugged in listening to heavy metal. Shaz looked more depressed than usual. She was staring blankly at her phone. Jerry was chatting with Josh. Skye and Ethan were too. He looked like he wanted to die. Occasionally, Skye and Jerry would give me a piecing look and teased me about my negativity. Not friendly teasing. For some reason, Skye and Jerry had grown close. They would walk off together or sit at they're own table. Jasmine wasn't in today, and Shaz was texting her. Shaz dropped her phone. I glanced up.

"What's up?" I asked.

"Yeah. Triggered." Replied Kaci, looking at pictures of blood on her phone.

"Jazzy is leaving us," Replied Shaz biting her lip. They had been good friends for years. My eyes widened. I wasn't expecting that. Even Kaci looked stunned, which never happened. Shaz couldn't take it. She stormed outside, tears in her eyes. Me and Kaci looked at each other. Kaci started to go after her, but I stopped her.

"Its best to leave her" I said.

Kaci hesitated. Than sat down. It was true. I knew Shaz like a book. Skye chuckled.

"What's so funny?" I glared at her.

"Emo life" She grinned.

I eyed Skye. She was being a bitch lately.

"What's your problem?" I asked, standing up.

"Beef" Kaci said.

"You saddos!" She laughed.

"Come on Jerry."

Jerry came to her side. Then walked off...