After all this time ?

El Classico

Things between Neymar and I have been tense since he told me he knew about Sergio. The thing is , Sergio and I , we weren't meant to be . We've been over for years. I deeply loved him yes . But , he doesn't mean anything to me anymore . And I am going to prove to everyone tonight , especially Neymar , that Sergio is just a coward ( SORRY I KNOW HES BAE 😍) and means nothing to me .

The moment I walked in the dressing room , I was determined not to let anyone ruin my mood or to make this night a nightmare . VISCA BARCA!!

15 minutes before the actual game , Neymar came to apologize for his behaviour. I like him . But I can't be disturbed by anything right now . My mind is set on the guys , winning the game . That's all that matters to me .

Watching MSN go is incredible, they are on fire . It's 3-1 with only 5 minutes before half-time . I was so focused on Ney that I hadn't noticed Sergio , until now.

His eyes met mine for a second and it felt like we were in high school all over again , memories of us having fun , laughing, kissing , crying over a movie . It felt like old times.

He looked determined to score a goal , and when he did , he dedicated it to me. TO ME! ( celebration in the media )I can't believe this . It's 3-2 Before half-time. And he saw me. How worst can it get ?

The whistle blew and I hurried up to the changing room. When the boys came in , Neymar didn't even look at me , and the rest of them didn't know what to think .

"Okay guys , you've done a good job out there , it's 3-2 and it's only halftime. We need this victory! " I say

Than Gerard spoke up.

"Why cam..? Why did he dedicate his goal to you ? Tell us , because we are all confused"

I was going to answer that but Neymar answered first

"They dated , a few years ago, I bet he still likes her. I bet she still likes him too. That's why she hurried up here. "

"Oh shut up Neymar ! Sergio and I were together a long time ago! I like you idiot ! You wanted me to be honest with you ! Than there it is ! I like you! Now I'll leave you guys alone for the last few minutes of break you have. Bring this victory home guys ! We are Barcelona and we will not let our fans down.!"

Than I left . On my way back to the pitch , I couldn't stop thinking about what I said . I told him I liked him ? Do I really like him? Maybe I do... I don't know ...... Then I heard a voice coming towards me

"Well well.... long time no see baby..."

Sergio.

"Well hello Sergio, anything I can do for you ?"

Call me rude , I don't care , I just want this conversation over .

"I just wanted to say hi to an old friend , I see you haven't changed a bit."

"Oh I did change Sergio. I really did . Now you'll excuse me I have a job to do . And is that really the only thing I ever was said to you ? A friend..? "

"I see you still know how to leave in style"

That bastard ! Why does he have to be so arrogant and annoying ! He's getting on my nerves as f*** right now. This night couldn't get any better ! ( note the sarcasm ) It really hurts me to know that I was just a friend to him , after all these years ? I loved him  with all my heart , we were soulmates I guess , I thought what we had was real , I really hope one day I could have the same kind of relationship with Neymar . He's always so sweet and caring , but I guess I won't ever have that again , because I'm a part of the medical staff , we can't date . It's written in our contract ; staff , medical staff , staff period are not allowed to date any of the players .

After this little conversation with Sergio , I was so angry and I wanted to prevent everyone I am good at something . Anything . That I can achieve anything even tho I'm no Lionel Messi.