Book of oneshots

HongIce

Angst of course cause I feel like shit. ~Emil

Entry one

All I feel anymore is self loathe.
How shocking... the emo Nordic boy loathes himself...
All I am is that Nordic boy. You know the one with the puffin..
But here I am bitching about how much I hate myself.
No one would miss my worthless ass.
I'm a pathetic waste of space.
I'm better off dead.

Entry two

If I'd say so myself I've really fucked up this time. Scars lining my thighs, more deep cuts that'll need stitching..
I'm so stitched up on my thighs I look like a doll gone wrong.
My pale paper white skin doesn't make it any better.
I'm a fragile person..
No one seems to get that.

Entry three

I wish someone would care.. All I get is glanced at..Teenaged nations have to go to school now..
Everyone hates me there..
I'm the emo boy again..

Entry four

I got beat up good today.
I feel like sobbing my eyes out..
My body aches.. I lost a lot of blood..
I'm paler then usual...
But.. this is what I want. I want to die. I want to disappear.
Never to be found. I cut more after school
The other Nordics haven't noticed the difference.
I'm still, and will forever be unimportant. Just another useless country for some extremely powerful country or empire to take..
I mean.. I'm only a teenager..
I'm peaceful..
I can't fight...

Entry five

I need new razors.
My body is broken.
As is my mind.
No one listens anymore.
So why try.
I have a knife this time.
It's difficult but does what I need it to.
End me soon please..

Entry six

A new student came today..
He looks familiar..
I think I've seen him at meetings before..
He smiled at me.
HE SMILED AT ME
I don't know why.. but he did.
I'm not saying anything important.
But he sat next to me.
His name is Leon Wang-Kirkland.
Seems so familiar...

Entry six (continued)

I finally figured it out.
He's Hong Kong.
He seems nice. He has a really nice smile.. I want to see more of it.

Entry seven

Me and Leon talked.
ME AND LEON TALKED.
We both know we're nations now.
We exchanged numbers.
Even if my body is still racking in pain.
I cut more today :(
But I can't help in smile.
What's wrong with me?

Entry Eight

Sorry for not updating in a week..
My body still is being tortured.
But I have a friend one other then my razor.
A best friend at that.
Leon is amazing. He lights up my entire world.

Entry nine

LEON CALLED ME CUTE TODAY
I don't know why but my face lit up bright red from his comment.
Making my pale hidden freckles seem unmissable.
I'm so embarrassed.
He called me adorable.
I blushed darker.
I think I'm sick.
My heart aches..
I don't know why.

Entry ten

Leon wasn't here today.
I was quite upset.. feeling lonely..
I miss his company.. I know it's only a day but it felt like forever..
I mean it's normal to miss your best friend..
I barely felt the inflicted pain.
Only the one in my heart

Entry eleven

I'm completely in love with Leon Wang-Kirkland.

~Icelands pov~

I sit up from a nights sleep with a groan. I'm early to wake up like always. But I can't help and smile. I get to see Leon today. I hop off my bed. Getting dressed for the day. Then I rush to school, a smile on my face. The weekend took forever to be over.

After about thirty minutes of walking I arrive at school. I walk to the library where me and Leon meet up often.
I look for the familiar brunette eventually finding him.
I walk over to his side and sit down
"Hey Leon!" I say softly.
He just smiles at me softly,
"Hey."
"How are you?"
"I'm good, how bout you Emy?"
"I'm fine." I blush, I like when he calls me Emy I don't know why.
"You're so adorable." I hear him say softly.
"You think so?" I blush darker.
"Of course. In fact I think I love you."
"Y-You d-do?!" My blush couldn't get darker.
"Well I wouldn't do this if I didn't." A pair of lips press against mine, my face grows redder,I happily comply before he pulls away.
"I think I love you too."
I'm in love with my best friend.