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If I Could Fly: Louis Tomlinson

Warning: It's sad...

"Y/N?" Harry asked, tears forming in there eyes. I dropped my bag and fell down on the ground. Niall ran over to me and rubbed my back.

"He's gone... He's gone!" I cried, having shaky breaths.

The boys stood silent, letting tears flow down there faces. I got up and ran out the door of the hospital. I ran to my car and got in. The tears over took me and I slammed my hands down on the steering wheel.

"Why!? Why did you have to go, Louis?" I screamed, sobbing more.

"Y/N!" The boys ran out to me. I shook my head and drove off to our house.

I got in the driveway and got out. The tears were never ending, it seemed. I walked inside, and seen the house as it was before, like this morning.

***

"Louis, are you okay?" I asked, walking where he was going.

"Yeah, I'm fine..." He smiled. He got up and walked into the kitchen, staring out at the window.

"Is there something bugging you?" I questioned. I stood by the door way as he looked at me.

"I just- I love you..." He whispered. My eyes widened as he fell down on the floor.

"Louis!?" I screamed. I grabbed the phone and dialed 911...

***

That was the first time he ever said he loved me...

I realized the tears were still flowing down. I walked into the bedroom, still seeing the sheets like they were before. I laid down and covered myself up. I wish this was just a dream. Like it would all go away. But it didn't, and I knew it wouldn't.

The sheets smelled like him. I cried more harder at the thought that he was never coming back.

Something out of the corner of my eye caught my attention. I looked at the Louis' night stand and there was a mixtape. I furrowed my eyebrows at it, my face was red from the tears that were still going.

I grabbed the mixtape, got up and grabbed the blanket with me.

I limped down stairs as I put the mixtape in the player. I sat on the couch as I hid myself in the blankets, the ones smelling like Louis. It started to play...

"Hey Y/N..." Louis' soft voice chuckled. His familiar voice made me sob even more, but I tried to stay quiet, still listening.

"You're probably wondering what this is, but you'll see." He spoke. Suddenly I heard piano go off. The familiar tune I had heard before. It was him always practicing this. But I have never heard his lyrics...

If I could fly
I'd be coming right back home to you
I think I might, give up everything just ask me to
Pay attention I hope that you listen, cause I let my guard down
Right now I'm completely defenseless
For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely and forget who you are
I'm missing half of me, when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only
For your eyes only...
I've got scars, even though they can't always be seen
And pain gets hard, but now you're hear and I don't feel a thing
Pay attention I hope that you listen, cause I let my guard down
Right now I'm completely defenseless
For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely and forget who you are missing half of me, when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only

I can feel your heart inside mine ( I feel it, I feel it!)

I've been going out of my mind ( I feel it, I feel it!)

Know that I'm just wasting time, and I hope that you don't run from me..

For your eyes only

I show you my heart

For when you're lonely

And forget who you are

I'm missing half of me

When we're apart

Now you know me for your eyes only

For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely, and forget who you are
I'm missing half of me, when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only
For your eyes only
For your eyes only...

Louis finished. "I love you, Y/N! Louis laughed. "And remember, if I'm not always there, I'll always be in your heart.." Louis finished and then it ended...

Suddenly, I let out cries that I was holding in all this time. He's gone... Louis' gone... My boyfriends gone... My best friends gone...

I walked up to the player and whispered one last thing to Louis.

"I've always loved you too..."