The alphas broken mate • Wattys 2017

Part 1

~warning this story may be triggering and can hint to self harm, anorexia, and thoughts of suicide. The chapters are not marked, but you have been warned~

I wake up to my stupid alarm clock blaring in my ears. I could already tell mom, Jack, Cole and Addie sat at the table downstairs eating blueberry muffins. I could smell them from my room, mouth-watering. I grab some skinny jeans, underwear, a muscle shirt and a North Face jacket, walking out of my room to the bathroom next door.

I turn the shower water to a medium temperature and start to remove my night clothes, consisting of a tank top and some silky shorts with a flower design. As I get in the shower I look down at my red scars on my wrist. Taylor is right, this is bad. I need to stop but it feels so good, after Alec, I just don't feel loved. Don't feel wanted. Don't feel like I belong. I stop staring at my red wrists and lather my hair in coconut shampoo. I rinse the shampoo out and cover the ends of my hair in pineapple conditioner and later washing my body with PinaColada Suave soap. I rinse my body of the soap. After I get out, I grab the clothes I brought with me and change into them after drying my body with a white fluffy towel.

I loathe the thought of school today. I check my phone and see the time is 8:30.

"Shizzz i'm gonna be late! Taylor is going to kill me!" I say and grab my phone and backpack, running downstairs and grabbing a muffin. "Bye mom. Im sleeping over at Taylor's tonight so i'll be back around 4:20 to pick up my stuff."

"Okay bye honey, remember though, tomorrow is your science test for Mrs. Onek, if you fail, your father WON'T be happy. Neither will I. No less than an 99." She says as she puts some eggs on Addie's plate. I just nod and sprint out of the house to Taylor's house which is 10 minutes away.

Once I arrive at her house, I walk through the door and say hello to her parents, Colton, and Ember.

"Taylor! Get your lazy butt up class starts in an hour!" I say waking her up.

"WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY" She whines before sitting up. "No." She says before laying back down and covering her head with her pillow.

"I'll burn your Harry Styles poster." I say and know she's defeated.

"They're Fireproof." She says and flips around on the bed.

I pick up her Our Moment perfume. Looking at the tag it says 'EXTREMELY FLAMMABLE'

I smirk and remember this being one of the last original ones.

"Would you be angry if I...... burnt Our Moment?"

She immediately sits straight up on the bed. "You wouldn't dare."

"Oh but I would." I say taking the lighter by her bed stand that her cousin left a few weeks ago. 

"Wait! Fine i'll get up." She says and stretches.

"Get in the shower, you stink." I say and she hops out of bed. I grab the body wash we got yesterday at Bath and Body works.

Once she gets in the shower I walk in the bathroom, listening to her sing One direction. She doesn't think she's good enough for choir but she is really good at singing. She sticks to Enriched Art though and she likes it, she just doesn't have friends in that class.

I take her hair brush out and two rubber bands for braiding her hair after her shower.

Once I'm done, I walk back into her room and lay an outfit on the edge of her unmade bed, fixing that too before her mom grounds her.

I grab a towel because I know she forgot and throw it over the shower door. Just the life of a 16 year old best friend to someone lazy.

I walk down stairs, grabbing an apple and a few pancakes her dad made. They're the best.

I run up stairs and set the food down for Taylor, taking a pancake and nibbling on it as she gets dressed.

"Are you going to eat today?" I ask her.

She walks over to her calendar and checks the date. "Nope. I ate yesterday." She says. She says its awful I cut, its almost as bad being anorexic! I just sigh and continue eating her food.

"Nicki can you braid my hair?" She asks and I nod, grabbing the stuff I set out in the bathroom.

While I braid her light brown hair, she sits facing the mirror, putting on makeup. She begins by painting some primer on her face followed by primer, contour, and blush on her face.She begins to fill her eyebrows in just a bit and does a quick smokey eye, finishing with some poppin highlighter. 

"Done." I say, putting the clear elastic around her freshly braided hair.

"Good, so am I." She says and puts her makeup in the bag I got her for christmas last year.

She reaches over the other side of her bed and grabs her bag.

"Lets go." I say and grab my backpack from the entry way and grabbing Taylor's Lunch that I would end up eating.

We run over to JaKobi, Taylor and her brother Coltons friend and ask him for a ride to school otherwise we'd be late.

"One sec. " He says and grabs his keys to his Camaro.

We arrive at school and receive many disgusted looks from people.

"Dude, you're gonna wipe down your seats right?"

I clutch the blade in my pocket.

"Oh my gosh did they touch you! we have to get you to the locker room showers NOW."

I position my blade to be inside my pocket and graze the sharp edge over my skin.

"I bet they slept with him so they could get a ride." Britt, the head cheerleader says loudly on purpose.

That was it. It sent me over the edge, that was what I couldn't bear. I slice my wrist  three times. One for each comment. One for each of my friends that have to deal with me. One for being me.

Taylor looks at my hands and gives me a worried look, rushing with me too the restroom to try and wash it off before anyone notices.

"You have to stop."She whispers as she wraps my wrist.

"Once broken, always broken,"