Long Lost

Is one one if you take one?

I can't tell if it's night or morning anymore. I have been in this place for as long as I can remember. I'm broken . I'm shattered. Sehun,Save me.

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Baekhyun-Chanyeol

"Listen, I'm quite sure he doesn't want to be reminded of this. He's suffered enough. Why do you want to make it harder for him?" Baekhyun whispers in chanyeol's ear, as he wraps his arm around his waist. They've been in bed for a while now, and baekhyun doesn't have the urge to sleep his major discovery off.

"He deserves to know, chanyeol, they've found Luhan's watch, in some trash of a fast food's restaurant. Wouldn't you want to know, if it were me?" He looks at chanyeol with his puppy-like eyes.

"But he's unstable, you can't just go to him and be like: hey. We just found your dead boyfriend's watch in a place that's twenty kilometers away from this unmapped village- fullstop. How does that feel like?" He rolls on his side to face baekhyun, resting a hand under his cheek.

"It has been two months. He certainly would have recovered from that. And it's 'missing' not dead. He's not dead."

"Not dead? Who would survive at 40 degrees Celsius. with all the mosquitos and all. I'm no doctor, but I bet Luhan wouldn't survive a day in there. What more with a year?"

"Maybe someone found him. And saved him." Baekhyun sighs.

"Baek. Stop thinking harder or your brain will explode. The detectives couldn't solve this case. You think you can?"

"Maybe."

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Sehun and..?

"Tell me, I've gone nuts right?"

"No. Why would you say that?"

"Everyone keeps saying you're gone, and I see you only at mornings, I guess I'm imagining it, you know." He laughs at me and his presence looks so real that I could even see his shadow and his skin looked so soft I wanted to touch him. He stood by the wall and looked at me, hands in his pockets and legs crossed. If my brain was making this up, then thank you, dear brain. Ps: I love you. Please plant me more nuts.

"Sehun, you haven't gone crazy. I'm not someone to lose your mind for, I'm just..me, Luhan."

"I love you, Luhan, why do you keep leaving?" I choke on my sobs as tears blur my vision,"they say you're dead."

"I'm sorry. I can't.."

I love you too.

I bolt out of bed and fall on my knees, my hands cover my face as I gasp for air. I try to stand up but I fall with a harder force. My knees would crack if this happened two weeks laterーmy diet kept getting worse, just as my mental state did. Most days I'd lay in bed and try not to cry, I wish I could really take back what I said to him that day. My stomach boils every time I think of it.