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Water rolled off the knife as I dried it.
Dad had always told me to be careful when washing knifes. My fingers touched the blade softly testing it, it felt cold hollow against my skin. Just like my heart. Dad had always told me to be careful when washing knifes. He told me he'd always be here. You know what? Dad lied. I moved the knife slowly over my wrist letting it rest there. I giggled as I felt my plause quicken. Good old dad always trying to protect me. What can he do now? Nothing. I gripped the knife harder so hard I thought my kunckles would break from impact. One cut never hurt anyone...
"Amber come in here I need to speak with you", my mother called from the other room. I jumped causing the knife to slip outta my hand. Crap, now I'm gonna have to wash that again. I sighed standing up to wash off my hands. I walked into the living room to find my mom pacing back and forth. "Umm mom is everything okaii I was knida doing something." I asked her pacing putting me on edge.
"Okaii listening Amber. I've keep this from you long enough and I'm not proud of it."
she buried her hands in hands her body slumping lifelessly on the sofa.
"Tell me what Mom?" I asked werided out by her behavior.
"Your father and I were going to tell you you sixteen for crying out loud!?! She laughed once then stared into my eyes. Huh before I had you your father and I were blessed with a baby boy. Oh the joy in your fathers eyes when he was born. He was beautiful his almond eyes dirty blond hair. Huh my Adam. But your dad was called for duty and I know it seems selfish but I couldn't just let him leave without me," her eyes were gagging me begging me for forgivens for understanding.
"So you see I had to give Adam up Amber there was no other opption. You understand don't you." I thought about it. I wasn't an only child I had a brother. Pretty cool... Hmm wonder what I'll have for dinner. Welp better anwser her.
"I of course I understand I mean you had to do what could you do. It took alot of courage from both you and dad." I stiffened at the very mention of my father. Maybe one day I'll get to meet him". I added that part in for my moms sake. My mom got up to hugg ne hiding her head in my sholder.
"Thank you baby and i thought this was gonna be hard." she sighed with releaf and whispered something incorherent.
"What mom?" i asked she mumbled again I pulled back to look at her
"What was that's?"
"Ohh well I'm glad your so open to change because you've been invitied to stay with your brother and his adopited family for a few months so you'll have to go to school up there. I know it's a lot to take in but it'll be fine your flight leaves tomorrow." she said and wiped the perspration of of her head. What the heck stay with my brother why? I'm prefectly fine at home. But there's no use in aruging it'll only make her upset. With my best smile I could apply I said " Better start packing then right?". As smile that could melt ice appeared across her face. "Thats my girl." I hugged her quickly and ran to pack. One day to pack a months worth of stuff this outta be funn. I ran my finger through my blond locks wrapping it into a ponitail. Shoot I forgot a piece. I placed a clipover the black strand. My friends freaked when I dyed the back black. But liked it gave me and edge. I finished at around 12:00.
Crap I gotta wake up in like 5 more hours.
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5AM THE NEXT MORNING
Ugh what to wear what to wear. I mean I don't wanna seem like a nerd. Then again a slut no better. I finally choose a black blue top with the words: last name ever first name greatest.(btw I love that songgg) with some black skinnies. My mom shook her head in aprovel and drove me to the airport. As my plane took off I couldn't help but think that this might be funn.
Idk what to call it or even if it's worth finishin so let me kno what you think I really need to know
Peace.Love.And.Applesause
