the bad boy knows

beauty?

Summer

''Ughhh"I groaned as I got up hearing my alarm clock ring at 6:30 am sharp. I walked to bathroom grabbing some clothes and did my usual routine. After I finished getting ready I grabbed my stuff and grabbed a green apple before heading towards Ryder' s car.

"Hi" I said to Ryder as I locked up the house walking to his car getting in. "Hey" he replied driving to school this I looked out the window wondering why I was here on earth? what purpose do I serve here? And thinking of life.

We arrived at school ugh hell on earth I stepped out of the car slightly cold and walking into the school with my head down. Ryder was a Little ways behind me,so I sped up going to guitar since I don't need books for that class.

I tripped over falling face first,looking up I saw Jonathan. Fuck it I'm done being calm. I got slowly smiling a calm smile staring at him knowing behind the smile of mine was me hiding the hurricane of anger that was going to be released on him.
'' Jonathan if you don't cut your shit I'll hurt you so bad your mom will have to bury you 6 feet underground" I said.

"Yeah right I'm not scared of you nerd your as scary as a mouse not at all" he laughed in my face. "That's it I warned you" I said lowly. I punched him in his throat to shut his laughing up which worked, but left him gasping for air. "Next time I won't be so nice" I said looking at all the people around me I yelled ''FUCK OFF" and went to guitar. What is happening to me I was so scared now I'm telling him off Ryders having an effect on me oi vey  I  think in my head.

Guitar flew by fast along with math luckily I didn't get in trouble. Then break went by along with art now I'm in English. ''Okay class today your going to do a project and your topic is you will write what you think beauty means to you, but you will be in assigned groups of 4 and this project is due Friday so that leaves you 3 days since today's Tuesday." Everyone groaned at the fact that Mrs. Wright is assigning partners. ''Alright alright calm down guys yeesh let's see Stephanie Steve Matt and Carly group one,Jack Mike brianndi Tanya group two, Sarah Celeste Samuel Jorge group three, Bruce alysia nathan Hannah group four and summer Jonathan Everest and Dakota are group five so go!" Mrs wright said( a/n get it Mrs wright because it's English ha ha... no ok I'll be in the corner crying😂👌 )

At the mention of Jonathan I groaned as he walked over to my table glaring at me while Dakota and Everest sat down across from me which means... noooo he has to sit next to me ughhh I thought as he sat down. ''okay so who's house when what time and day" Dakota said getting to the point while Everest pulled out a sheet of paper. " I'll write down a schedule for us at times it'll work out for us" Everest said. '' we don't have practice tomorrow after school so I can do tomorrow" Jonathan said while crossing his arms. "I can do tomorrow too since I'm off on Wednesdays" I said while Everest wrote it down "I can do tomorrow too but at what time and who's house" Dakota said.

I looked at her then at everyone else in our group we all looked at one another till I said ''alright let's do it at my place" they nodded at me "what time tho"Everest had said "how about 4:00 pm yeah" Dakota said. "Okay it's settled then"Jonathan said grabbing his bag when the bell rung. "Wait phone number's" Dakota said. "Well if you want it so bad here'' Jonathan said to her while winking and writing his number on her hand. She laughed in his face he looked at her confused, "look here pal I don't go for jocks with cocks okay I tend to go for boobs McKenzie  if yah get what I'm saying as in I go for my side'' she said with a laugh. (A/n boobs McKenzie is from markimoo if you don't know him I cry)

His eyes widened and he walked of embarrassed we laughed and copied down his number and Everyone else's in the group then we departed with a quick goodbye. I went to the bleachers outside not really wanting to go inside the cafeteria for lunch. So I pulled out my phone and headphones putting on the song afraid by the neighborhood.

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place

Make that money, fake that bunny, ache my tummy
On the fence, all the time
Paint young honey, face so sunny, ain't that funny
All my friends always lie to me
I know they're thinking

You're too mean, I don't like you, fuck you anyway
You make me wanna scream at the top of my lungs
It hurts but I won't fight you
You suck anyway
You make me wanna die, right when I

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me

I sang along quietly while thinking till I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked up to see Ryder looking at me holding up two subway bags. I took one happily "thanks" I said "your welcome so heard your doing a project with Jonathan" he said Jonathan's name so coldly I slightly flinched "Yeah I am but it's okay we have two other people in our group they'll be at my house tomorrow" I replied. " why" he said with slight anger in his voice "for the project numbnuts" I said with a are-you-stupid look.

He put a hand on his heart looking offended " I'll have you know my nuts work perfectly fine and are not numb thank you very much" he said. I just shook my head chuckling while drawing a girl and space behind her. "That looks good" Ryder said "ummm thanks?" I said closing the book of sketches and started eating my subway quietly thinking why am I here why do I exist and why can't i feel happiness truly. I stopped thinking and sighed slightly I hate when my depression kicks in at random times. I finished my sub just as the bell rang

"c'mon let's go to class" I said to Ryder. We walked in silence then parted ways I went to science lost in my head. As I arrived to science I sat in the back and put my headphones in drowning out the world thinking I started drawing again. Soon I had free period so I just started walking home not even caring and unlocked my door walking inside my house I saw Jack my little ball of energy he attacked me we fell over giggling.

"Hai sissy why you here" Jack said "Well I came home to see if you wanted to go to sissys work early for ice cream" I said to him. "Ooooooooo yes yes yes pweaasse sissy" he begged with puppy dog eyes. "Alright let's go" I replied as i put my backpack on the  couch.
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WASSUP FAMMMM aight so how'dyou like it lmao I'll be posting another chapter maybe today but hmmmm idk comment like whatever you please.