midnight romance .

bad times

I walked out of school with my best friend hoshi , he has been my friend since we were 6 years old . He never really left my side .
" so anna any plans for the night ? " hoshi said .
" nothing special. .. im gonna go to the park and do my homework,  than im gonna home to clean the house and make him dinner  " i answered .
" i honestly still dont get why you have to do this for him . And if you don't he punishes you ! " hoshi said .
" well i stopped complaining when i was 14 . So now i do it silently.  " i said feeling a bit sad .
" wish i can help ... but i gotta a date with my hot girlfriend,  we're totally kicking down tonight " he said playfully.
" ew thats gross , stop it " i pinched his arm lightly.
" awch .. I'm going now .. later hater "
" don't get her pregnant! " i said
" don't worry i won't " he kissed the top of my head and ran towards her house as we passed by it . I continued walking untill i reached the park , i can hear the sound of children laughter and moms chating and watching over their kids . I walked inside and sat on a chair that was a bit far from the children. 
I pulled my French textbook out and started reading it .
" mom can we please stay just fot 15 more minutes? " a little girl was begging her mom to let her stay .
" ok fine , but just for a little while " the mom said .
" thank you mommy.  I love you so much " the girl jumped up and down from happiness. That reminded me of me and my mom when we used to come her . I was 6 years old , and i would play with the other kids while she watches me with a smile on her face . You know .. my mother was beautiful,  she had a slim body like models,  blond hair and bleu eyes like mine . She was kind and everybody loved her . My dad was really in love with her , he was always happy ... untill she died , he became sad and cold hearted . And it's all because of me .
Flashback : 6 years ago .
I was in the car with my mom singing our favourite song . She turned to me and said " honey I'm having a great time with you " .
" me too mommy " i smiled at her .
" i love you " she came close to kiss my cheek , than all i felt was a huge weigh on my body .. than i saw black .......
I woke up in room , it looks like a hospital i tried to get up , but everything in me hurts , but still i managed to stand on my feet .
" it's okaay there no need to cry , she is in safe hands now " i heard a female voice outside of the room . I approached the door and it wasn't fully closed . I saw my dad on his kneek crying his heart out , and my aunt Samantha standing in front of him .
" i can't sam , i can't. . I lost her forever . The woman i love is gone " my dad said and tears started falling more .
The doctor came and helped him to stand on his feet .
" mr.Brown .. there's no need to do this to yourself.  Your wife didn't die for nothing . She used her weigh to protect your daughter.  She saved her life " these words kept repeating in my head . My dad looked towards the door and saw me siking view.  He had a look full of hate . I know when ever he's gonna look at me he's gonna remember the reason why his wife is dead .
End of flashback.
My eyes started crying without alerting me . And i hated to think about this . I closed my eyes for a while,  but sleep took over me and i found myself drowning in a world of darkness ....