Girls Love

Wonderful Life

I tried, tried so hard to forget. It's not easy to look at someone else and not see her. Every little detail, I associate with her. I stopped searching for her, and tried to moved on. I've been with so many women but none of them gave me what I wanted, that warm and comfy feeling.
I wanted her, I needed her... I couldn't live without her. One morning before my clock rang I waked up. The need for her was even worst, I bathed, ate and dressed up unconsciously. Couldn't believe it has been 2 years since she left, I wasn't home at that time, she just left me a note and took all her clothes and things.
She didn't gave me any hint of where she could be, I went to her hometown, to visit her parents and maybe find her there. When I got to the house, I knocked with so many hopes, her mother opened the door and just hugged me.
She told me how her daughter came here two years ago, she was crying and saying how much she loved them. Then I knew, something was wrong. I entered the house and her mother came out of the kitchen with some tea and snack.
"She would have never do something like that if it was for a good reason", she said. Somehow I felt I was supposed to say those words. "When she came to my doorway and cried, I thought something happened between you two, but I know you would never hurt her"
"I'm sorry, I took so long to come...I couldn't believe she left me, and...". She sat beside me and hugged me. "I know child, I know". I cried so much for so long.
After crying nonstop she went to the kitchen to prepare food, since I haven't really ate well. I stood up and looked around the house. I had come here a few times but never truly appreciated the pictures of her when she was a kid. She has always been so beautiful, cheerful and so full of life. My heart was breaking every single second while remembering all our memories. I used to be closed at home all the time, if I had a girl I would just take her to see a movie or eat take-out and after that be at home having sex. However when I met Lizzie, she came in my life like a storm. She made me go to walks, to cafeterias, to friends parties and even clubs. It was crazy but I felt comfortable since it was with her.

"She had never had a girlfriend, so when she told me about you I could see her happiness. She was brighter. You made her feel like that", Lizzie's mom pat my shoulder. "If I did, why did she left me? Why couldn't she told me she was leaving?"
I was there for hours, "Didn't she say where she was going? Or at least a clue?". Her mother went inside and cane out with a phone. "That's Lizzie's phone...". "Yes, she left it here. She said she didn't needed it. I honestly thought she was fighting with you for awhile so I didn't say anything, but take it. You know more about this than I do"
I took the phone and looked at it, it had a bear strap hanging. It was from the time we went to the amusement park. She wanted me to win her something and that was the best I could do. "Thanks..."
I walked to my car and sat there, just looking at the phone. I turned it on. I searched everything, there was so many calls from me as well as messages.
I entered her email and found a message from a hospital, it said that there was a bill paid. However no one from the family was sick. I tracked the hospital and went rushing.
I got to the counter and asked for Lizzie. The nurse told me her room and for the second time in my life I ran, I ran so fast. The first time I ran like that was when a dog took the ring case from my hand and ran away.

I stood in the door, I was so tired. With a strong will I opened the door, as I looked up my knees went weak and tears flowed from my eyes, making me not able to see anything.
I was so glad, it felt like my whole life turned bright again.
I was still on the floor crying when I heard her voice, "You don't change, always being such a crybaby", she said while she started to cry as well. "I can never get away from you, right? I tried being so careful". I stood from the floor and walked to her bed, we hugged each other for a while.

After some time, I had stopped crying. "Why didn't you told me?". "I couldn't make you suffer this with me...I thought that if I just left you, you would have forget me, I'm sorry"
She explained to me that she had cancer, she found about it when she went to the hospital to see if she could get a sperm donation, the doctor did some analysis and he found the cancer growing.
"I came to get treatment and the doctor says it's working...", I smiled and hugged her. "I'm so glad! For both wanting to have a kid with me and getting better". She smiled back and like that 3 years passed.
She got better and we got the sperm donation and had a beautiful little girl, we named her Liz.