Finding Gods Grace, In Unexpected Places

Well today was no different than yesterday or the many days before that, or so I thought. I don't know when it happened exactly, but time caught up to me and now when I look in the mirror I don't see the naive young girl, but instead an older wiser woman staring back. mirror's don't lie. I'm oddly okay with that because with everything I have been through in my life, knowing God is there makes it okay to love myself.  I'm 36, married to the most wonderful man for 14 years and have we have an amazing 13 year old son. I wouldn't change that for anything, (though to be honest some days I wish I could just run away and be alone and have no worries like when I was a child), but I know I would quickly get lonely, and I would miss the noise, the forever cluttered house, and constant questions... All which is my life ... Plus we just got a beautiful rescue puppy named baxter, he's a Pomeranian and looks like a mix between a red panda and a fox with the shortest little legs. Hes really xander's dog but I can't help myself hes so adorable, he's beginning to open up and is starting to trust us after coming from an extremely bad home. Unfortunately I can relate.  I'm a stay at home mom which means I get the amazing opportunity to Unschool my son (which I have to tell ya is not quite as easy as it sounds), while my husband works hard to provide for our family. we could have had an easy life when my husband received his inheritance from his father's passing, but we were in our twenty's and thought we needed everything, which left us extremely unhappy, greedy, materialistic, spoiled people. This of course was before we experienced God's love.  We would move every couple years. Huge houses with big yards that we bought and lost for various reasons, trying to out run our problems OK my problems. which I know sounds a bit crazy, but it's true. I truly thought I could escape all the negitvity that was always in my head with a fresh start, little did I know then just how wrong I was.  now that we are pretty much broke living paycheck to paycheck in a two bedroom trailer we are actually happy. It took longer than it should have but We found out it was never the money or the stuff that made us happy but being with each other, and now that we are kinda living on top of each other we have all the family time we could ask for, regardless of what we are doing like cooking, cleaning, walking the dog, schooling, watching movies, playing board games, we are making memories together. Finally starting traditions, and putting down roots in our new home, but as with every family we have skeletons in the closet, but these secrets can't ever come out or what life we have tried for so long to have will crumble... To be continued