The Pain That I Told

The Love Was Wanted

I'm a teenage girl that's looking for love , but always ended up with lust i was in love with this boy name show well most people call him debo it was Love at first sight I thought he was the one for me I thought he was the dude of my dreams the dude I was waiting for all my life so yeah you know I was feeling the kid so it was one night we was with each other his phone kept ringing i didn't care thought it was one of his homeboys until this girl inbox me about him I had no clue he had a girlfriend so I was hurt I started crying I asked him he said no he don't fuck with her no more so you know me I go with the flow because I loved him . So me being stupid I took him back because I thought he would never lied to me so my main Her name Amaya called me and said you don't see that picture on Facebook With show and his girlfriend I couldn't do nothing i was stuck I couldn't take it anymore so I just left him alone . A couple months later I found me a boy bestfriend his name was kartel jay he was so sweet and kind and when I was down he picked me up and gave me good advices so I took it and kept it we started feeling each other and he was getting jealous at everything I do it could be a text come through my phone and he would get jealous so December 16th he asked me out of course me I said yeah never thought I would go this far on February 6th I found out i was pregnant the day my grandma died it was so crazy my family started fighting my mama and daddy was trying to get me to kill my baby and I was just the target for everything and my pregnancy got worse I stayed in the hospital everyday the doctors thought I was going to die they said I wasn't gone make it and they said my baby was gone die I layed in my bed and suffer the whole 9 months nothing could of help the hurt and pain I was going through I thought I was dying but slowly my baby daddy mama told me I had to take a blood test because the baby wasn't her sons that shit really got to me I was thinking all types of crazy shit I was going insane but my boyfriend kept me going he was right by my side every step of the way so I went to the doctor he couldn't make it and they couldn't find the baby heart beat I cried and cried so they had to do a ultrasound to see if miracle was there it was god that only made me fight each and every day so it was this day I went to the car wash and this man pull the gun out on us and I had to get out the truck and run I was hurting so bad but god always kept his angel on the look out I never been so scared in my life so I went to my dad house and I wasn't feeling so well and my aunt Ask did I want to walk to the store i said yeah and on the way there I passed out miracle heart beat was dropping then she started barring With Me my mama begged them people for me to have Miracle but I had to wait so Night fall came and my boyfriend wasn't answering his phone I kept calling and kept calling so maybe I thought his phone went dead so I went to sleep thinking I was gone wake up to call and I got a call while I was in school saying he was in jail my heart started racing I thought he was never getting out I thought he was gone miss apart of Miracle life so I called everybody so the first person I called was his mama she said she was gone leave him in there I wasn't trying to hear that so I hung up and called my aunt we was on the way to get him out until his daddy said he got him I was crying I was worried me being pregnant and worried my emotions got out of hand September 15th came I was hurting and i started bleeding so I thought I had a miscarriage so I called my mama and told her she rushed to the house and said I was in labor I was nervous but time flew by and I had my bundle of joy but I caught a fever during my labor and I had to stay in the hospital more days then I should have September 18 I came home we had a family dinner and people came over to see miracle and after that I never seen them again Now my boyfriend family and my family don't get alone I don't talk to his mama or nobody but being a teen mom you have to stay prayed up and many blessings will come