40 Shades Of Bruno

Chapter {12}

"Bruno, talk to me" Alex reached for his face and he pulled back as if he'd flinch. She look at him with sad eyes, the eyes of curiosity.

"I've told you...I just don't like the affection"

"Why?" Alex at this point was just as confused as he was. It wasn't what he didn't like being done to him, it was how he felt. The two ideas simply got mixed up and that left him indifferent. "Alex"

"You can tell me" she pleaded to him with begging eyes and it was hopeless. "Alex! No, please...I just think I should go to bed"

"Fine" she threw her hands up in the air and shrugged. Bruno looked at her as she began to walk away and he said "where are you going?"

"To my home, if I have one still." Bruno stared at her blankly and clueless to what to say just to make her stay. "I don't really care, I just don't want to be here feeling trapped—"

"Alex..." Bruno pronounced calmly

"...And unwanted, while you figure out who or what you want"

"Alex" the tone of his voice became impatient as she continued to ramble.

"So I can just sit here and be..." her voice started to strain

"ALEX!!" Bruno roared at her to try and get her to stop but she just responded by doing the same

"YOUR TOY THAT YOU USE WHENEVER YOU NEED PLEASING!!"

There was an awkward silence in the room now and Alex face lit the whole room red, while water sat still in her eyes "because that's all I am and it's all that I feel like I am to you, nothing! While you feel nothing I feel like nothing! So who's not to tell me to leave you and this...whatever it is..." she challenged him in a glaring contest and he immediately looked away.

"You can barely look into my eyes...I can't, this is going to ruin me if I don't end it here"

"Alex..."

"Bruno, I can't. I'm sorry" she pick up her bag and slip it on her shoulder.

"Alex wait!"

"Goodbye Bruno, take care"

"I love you!" Bruno unexpectedly blurred out desperate to draw some attention from her. "I-I'm falling in love with you Alex and it scares the shit out of me because I've been manipulated my whole life by everyone I've loved" The room carried that silence echo but this time hope lingered behind it. Alex sat there, speechless looking at the door and him still deciding. Deep down she knew she'd stay just because she knew that she was right. Also because she wouldn't let that very moment go.
"Alex please say something..."

Alex meant every word she said and she was dying in the inside without anything that she wanted from him in return for his satisfaction. It made her feel less than she was and it threw down her confidence. She just kick her shoes off and dropped her bag on his dresser letting out a deprived sigh. Alex walked out the room and Bruno watch her carefully. He didn't go after her or even think about it because he felt exposed to everything he seemed to be. So he just watched her.

The next morning, Alex woke up in the guest room laying over the lavender comforter. Her eyes peeked open and she saw Bruno sitting in the chair staring at her. She sat up on the bed and looked at him crazy while he laughed at her. "Sorry, I was just watching you sleep until..." he cleared his throat out of embarrassment. "Want to do something today?"

"Like what" Alex replied out of curiosity.

"Get some ice cream or go to the mall, whatever you want. I have bad ideas...it's up to you"