Straight Guy of the Alpha (BOYXBOY) (SLOW UPDATE)

Chapter 18

"James, I'll be alright."

Ever since I woke up, James never left me. He chose to stay with me and missed his school.

I persuaded him to go to school or take care of his pack because I was sure that it must've been more than two weeks since I got in this pack clinic. The doctor told me that I was not awake for about a week since James had found me.

if I asked him what happened to me at the moment he found me, James would look away producing tears, then he'd embraced me till he slept. I only remembered that I was making dinner, then I woke up here. Also there was a memory telling me that I met my parents again. They even told me that they gave James their bless for being with me.

"James." I called his name again, but he shook his head instead.

He looked down to my bandaged left arm with the look of hurt and guilt on his face. It told me that he was blaming himself.

"It's not your fault. Accident happened unexpectedly." I said by using the 'accident' word due to my ignorance of what happened to me, and I also tried to reason with him that it was not his fault.

"It was my fault, my love. If I took you with me instead of letting you go alone to school, none of this would happen." He looked straight at my eyes. His eyes were shining gold indicating that it was Xavier. "I almost lost you.. what if you'd not wake up? What if-" he stopped himself, then continued with a shaken body "what if you're gone.." he came closer, then hugged me like I was about to disappear. His embrace hurt my injured left arm, but I ignored it.

I mentally noted that I would never bring this topic for a while. I did not want to see James or Xavier was in this condition again. So at this moment, I would let him devoting his emotions till he could calm himself down.

Witnessing someone you cared about blaming himself/herself for something that was not predictable like what happened to me was the worst thing to be seen. As people that were so close to them, we had an unwritten obligation that we must help them no matter how much words we used to assure them that it was not their fault. Before the goal was reached, the duty had not been finished.

'I have to come up with something.'

He moved his head from left to the right burying his head into my neck as he wrapped his arms tighter than before.

I tried to loosen off the hug. However, when I was about to push him by placing my hands on both of the side of his chest near his armpits, he growled and embraced me even more. My lounge was burned due to the lack of the oxygen.

"Xa-xavier, I can't breathe."

He whined and started to loosen his arms, but his head was still on my neck.

'I really need to stop this!'

I lifted up my arms from my side wrapping aroung his waist. "It's okay, I'm here. Just calm down." Rubbing my right hand up and down in order to him to calm.

I was starting to think of something to distract his mind. I tried to remember old memories that would calm him down.

"Hey, do you still remember the first time we meet?" I asked him about our very first meeting in high school hoping it would be successful to distract him.

Surprisingly, he was stop doing what he was doing in the first place. Then I felt his head moving from side to the other side. It represents that he didn't remember.

"You know.. the our first time class. I think It was Math." I was not really sure if, but then I remembered. "Yeah! It is Math class. You were confidently going to the Mr. Hanson's chair asking him question because you seatmate told you that. But it turned out that you're pranked by him. You were all red then looked towards your friend who was whistling acting like he did nothing wrong. I don't remember much, but I do remember Mr. Hanson asked you to solve a question that the whole students didn't know the answer, including me, as a punishment."

I chuckled a little and I felt he did to, so I continued. "Everyone was laughing, and you were so red. Surprisingly, you solved the question quickly. We were all shocked. Even Mr. Hanson priced nonstop and told the class that we had the star in our class." I could feel he was grinning. "At the end, we all respected you. And I can't lie that I was proud of you back then. I didn't even know why was that, but I think I know why now."

He was finally calm. I could feel it somehow. He was still on me, but I didn't really care because at this moment I really wanted to stay close with him.

'I think I know how he is always wanting to stay close to me. It's so good. I really want to be like this forever.'

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"Hey Xavier, I remember something. It's about my parents." He pulled his head away from my neck to look at me.

"What is it, my love?"

"I think I have met them before I wake up here." I looked at his face. He was closing his eyes. I could feel his body starting to tremble again.

"They said that they bless you for being with me. They've approved us for being together." I told him that before it could be worse.

"They-they do?" He looked so happy instantly. Then he hugged tighter than before. "Thank you for telling me that, my love." And he started to cry on my neck because I could feel something wet on it.

"I love you."