Fools Gold [l.s]

[one]

[Harry's Point Of View]

"And I wanted to ask her to marry me, Haz. But I just don't know how to ask."  Louis said from the other line. 

My breath hitched as I tried to process the words Louis just said. He wanted to marry her- Jane. And I can't express how I feel right now as those words left his lips. I wanted to sob and confess to Louis tight now about how much I'm so in love with him that it hurts me. I wanted to scream at him, to make him realize that I could love him better. But I couldn't do that to him. So I did what any normal best friend would do. 

"Oh, that's great, Lou. Just take her out and then pop the question after saying some sappy shit." I said, my voice wavering at the end. I tried to be strong, but I knew that I can't do that- can't pretend to be strong much longer. 

Snapping out of my thoughts, Louis chuckled nervously. "I guess so. Talk to you later, Haz."

"Yeah, bye, Lou. Love-" I stopped mid way as he hung up. I sighed as I stalked to my bedroom to change. 

My room was clean except for my nightstand that has plastic wrappers of candy littering on top. My bed, which was by the window, was unmade with the white fluffy comforter ruffled. A table outside in the balcony with a chair. 

I made my way to where my closet was and grabbed a pair of black skinny jeans with a see through black button up with flowers designed. It was my 'I-wanna-get-laid' outfit. 

I wanted to get laid tonight to forget Louis. To drink until my mind fogged with nothingness and the thought of Louis with someone else long forgotten. I wanted to feel someone else's lips on my skin, ghosting over my neck, but I would imagine it as Louis' lips instead of some stranger. 

Grabbing my car keys and wallet, I made my way outside and went inside my car. I started the car and backed away from my garage. 

I drove through buildings, houses and stores, feeling some kind of calmness in me as I passed through a blur of lights and people who were walking down the street, either alone or with somebody else. It was nice to see people with happiness in them, wishing I had it also. 

Growing up, I never felt at home in the house that my parents payed. They were always busy and going to business trip that would last months. My sister, Gemma wasn't any different either. She would be away with her friends, going to malls and spending thousands of money using her credit card. I would be at home with no company. I would read a book or play video games , as that was the only source of entertainment for me. 

But when I turned fourteen, someone moved in next door. Turns out, it was a family- Louis' family to be exact. My mom was home at the moment, so she invited them over. I was really shy back then, and hid inside my room until my mom called me. I went downstairs and I saw Louis. He was smiling at me back then with his blue eyes focused on me. That was the moment I knew that I was gay. I smiled shyly back at him. And from then on, we hung out.