Xavier

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I'm sorry if I lied to you
When you asked me if I was ok.
I'm sorry if I life d when you
Pointed out the marks on the backs of
My arms. I'm sorry if I said the cat,
It wasn't, and as a point of fact, he's never scratched me. I'm sorry if I life d to you when you asked did you eat. I'm sorry if I lied to you about where I've been or hat I've been doing. I've been in bed, wishing god would take me.I just assume people don't
Actually want to hear
My reality

I'm sorry if I left you. I don't really understand how to stick with people when I'm too sad to even put up with myself. I'm sorry if I don't answer text messages. I'm sorry if I suddenly start distancing myself from you with no explanation. Its because I can't fucking breathe sometimes and too much of me wonders if you aren't better off without my endless harassment. I'm sorry if I left you even while you saw me everyday, if you watched the light die in my eyes and my smile fade.

I'm sorry if I hurt you by lashing out on a bad night. I'm sorry if I hurt you by calling your complaints lies. I'm sorry I ripped myself open and made you watch me come apart, and I'm sorry I came apart.

I'm so sorry so much and so often and I know it probably means nothing, but

I'm sorry.