It was a sunny afternoon. Sun shining through the open windows and the soft summer breeze had a bit of a nip to it, natures sign that fall was creeping upon us. Phillip accompanying me as a friend to laugh at everything around us. Everything seemed so right. Our conversations seemed like a everlasting ribbon. Smooth and seemed together . When we had pauses, their weren't awkward but filled with thought of with the assignment we were currently working on. I liked the way our relationship was heading and how natural it had come along.
My friends had their suspicions of me liking him more then a friend, but I couldn't. I had my eyes set on a guy named Spencer. Oh, how adorable he was! Shyness gave way when I was around him though his eyes were always giddy when looking at me. I would catch him in the hallways, being smashed around against the lockers and other people rushing to get to class to class. Very romantic, I know.
I liked him, but like so many other crushes, there was no asking out. Everyone always said to me that we would make the cutest couple. He had his slicked back hair and dark complexion while my light brown hair and hazel eyes seemed to highlight the best in him. Though every person in the school asked if we were together, friends made it annoyingly obvious that I liked him like that. The whole thing blew up in my face when I fond out he already had a girlfriend from the school he recently came from.
Yes, my heart dropped, but did I mind? No. So many times I've been rejected. What difference did this make? The only hit I toke from this was that it made me feel unwanted. Guys found me invisible. Was I wearing some unknown camouflage? I couldn't help but feel lonely and hopeless for my love life in the future. Hobbies overtook my life and I filled my spare time with something to do other then to pity my self which I hated to do.
My loveless past was behind me as I pushed it against the back of my mind but it toke time. Until someone moved it as if this huge rock in my mind was a feather.
