runningaway from my fears

going back

I said goodbye to my new friends in Connecticut it was this woman called Beth Adams and a man a man called brad Adams they have a daughter called Emma Adams she was a good kid when ever she needed advice she would call me mostly because I had a little bit in common with her except I didn't have a sister who killed herself i had a lot in common with her I was called names I heard a kid call her a slut when we went to the mall I wasn't scared I told the kid if he ever called her that again I would cut his balls off he was frightened I didn't care no one treated Jen like that if they did they would wake up with something missing from their body. they were moving away from Connecticut and going to California I would meet them in a couple of months but I need to see my niece. I hugged Emma

ME:don't go girly when you meet a preppy guy in California

EMMA:its ok if he tries anything I'll kick his ass

ME:ok it's time for me to go I'll see you in a couple of months

we hug then I get on the plane and sit in my seat I grab my headphones and listening to my I pod I listened to home by Philips Philips

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When I got to my rental car I drove to the nearest Starbucks I bought two glazed doughnuts and 2 iced coffee's it was pumpkin spice I remembered Kate and I use to go to Starbucks and get iced pumpkin spice after that we would buy something from blue moons library it was full of books published in real life and books written by people from my home town it was cool because my book got picked number 1 I wrote 19 books and the library took it in after checking it out for any racism no the library only let's kids the age thirteen and up make sex novels I know what are they thinking but we always had a great time.

I drove up to her house and knocked on her front door a girl answered she looked about thirteen years old her hair was in a ponytail and she had lipstick and eyeliner on she was wearing a cheerleading outfit and she had a duffle bag she reminded me of me and Kate when we were younger

ME:Is Kate here?

GIRL:who are you?

ME:I'm a old friend

GIRL:ok MOM!

Oh my god that's Kate's daughter I saw Kate come from behind her she looked at me with tears she leaped at me hugging me I couldn't breath but I didn't care I haven't seen her for thirteen years and I wanted to spend the rest of my time with my best friend I looked behind her and saw her daughter staring I tapped kate's shoulder and pointed at her daughter she kissed her daughters head

KATE:I'll tell you later go to school

Her daughter still looked confused but she shrugged and ran to the school I smiled at the old days me and Kate use to run to school our boyfriend's would catch up I then saw a boy run to Kate's daughter and put his hands around her waist

KATE:hello storm come back to planet earth

ME:that's her

KATE:yep yep her names beth

ME:I know how you got that name it was from the song Beth by kiss

KATE:I loved that song ok

ME:I love it to come on lets go

KATE:where?

ME:you'll see

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We were at the library reading the books me and her made I read my oldest book blaming the fire it was about a girl who is pregnant and blames everyone except herself for her disaster of a life at the end her daughter tells her off and leaves her mother thinking after all those times and about if she should have blamed herself I looked at the dedication