Scars

(Beatiful scars) part 1

As I woke up I checked my phone saw a text it was one of my best of friends rayven me and her have been friend since we were baby's (literally) this is what she looks like

She had texted me saying

(Convo)
R-rayven n-name
R-hey are you up have you seen who tweeted you saying that they have a crush on their neighbor
N- noooooo but I have a idea who and I was going to study with him so mabey he will ask me out
R-not if I steal him from you first haha 😠 race
N-noooo please don't you can have Mark and if you think to steal him the head comes off 😡
R- jeez god I won't I was joking 😂
N- good I have to go get ready so I can study with Jacob bye
R- bye my homie
(End of convo)
I went to my bath room and and put on this
(Outfit below)

Nothing to fancy but you know to make it look like I do take care of myself I grab books and my phone and look at the tweet it was my crushes it said
"I have a crush on my neighbor and I might ask her out today" I scream in my head and spin a round on the side walk I didn't take long but we have a lot of space between houses so it took like 3 minutes to walk I was on my phone so it did take a long time I texted Jacob and yes Jacob sartorius I texted him and said
I'll be over minute he responded with 👌🏻
I giggled but kept walking I looked at his house I saw a blind open I looked at it and I was confused why did he look out was he waiting on me or something I shoved my phone in my back pocket and kept walking I finally got to his drive way and knocked on his door he immediately opens it and welcomed me in
Convo
J-Jacob n-name
J-hey he scratched the back of his neck
N-hey soooo are you ready to study
J-I was actually going to ask you something
N-ask away bro
J-well um I was wondering if you...
N-ohhh don't worry 😉 I saw your tweet don't worry
J-oh you did so you know what I'm going to ask you then 😏
N-yep and I will respond with yes no wait yasssssssss 😂
He laughed and put his hands on my waist and he leaned in and I did the same we kissed it felt like sparks flew I did really know how to explain it but said
Jump
As I did he picked me up I laughed I told him
We're not going to do any of that we can study
Ihe sat me down and I stood on my toes and kissed his cheek he kept those rosy cheeks no matter how old he got but he looked cute with them we sat on his bed I pulled out my phone and texted rayven
Convo
N-to late sucka haha 😝
R-haha anything happening between y'all
N-no we've just kiss he pulled out his books and looked at his phone my jeans pulled up because I shifted and Jacob gasps he asks why without me knowing what's happening I respond
What do you mean 'why'
He pointed to my leg where I cut myself multiple times I said
No it not what it looks like I can explain
Ok then what is why do you have cuts that only blades can do or knifes can do to you
I..I got hate and my mom and dad abused me and I just didn't feel the need to live I tried to kill myself by jumping I cut myself I took pills to just try and get off this earth I moved multiple time to get away from my parents and they found me every time so I moved here and you just so happens to be here and I guess I found a reason to live because you seemed nice and went school with me so I mean that why Jacob
I put my head down in shame and let out Crys I feel a presence on my back then I felt arms wrap around me I let out cries that day he onlys says
"Shhh shhh it's ok it's going to be alright" I smile when he tries to comfort me but I'm the thing that I like the most is being with him and not being felt like garbage