Eventually

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You know those people that you would do anything for? Give up anything for? The people who make you the best version of yourself, making it impossible to see yourself without them? The people that you might not even necessarily know, but you are certain you love? She was that person. She always left me on the tip of my toes, wanting to know more. She left me at lack of words, but that's when I thought. When a girl has beauty like hers, which I doubt any girl would compare, eyes can be a powerful tool. With one look she could relay the most intimate message, and after the connection was made, words ceased to exist. That's when it hit me, almost nothing needs to be said when you have eyes. She was a puzzle, like an unsolved problem no one wanted to solve simply because she was more of a discovery than a problem.

I wouldn't be surprised if she could start a storm by only using her words. She was really good with words. Which is probably the reason I would be totally fine being silent, and just sitting in her presence, soaking up her attention. I could never put her sentences into better. And her voice of which she spoke her always perfect sentences, a voice so mellow, so bright and warm and round, as if a beam of sunshine had been melted into sound. Really a talent if you ask me, because I've always hated my voice.

Although I knew she had a boyfriend, I sill loved her. And I'm sure she liked me, too, yet she just couldn't return the same love. There was kind of a peace in waiting for her. If I had to wait my whole life time, even if it was just to call her my friend, I'd be willing to do so.  I don't think she could ever push me away, like everyone has done for most of my life. I've had to learn on my own that everything's temporary, and to not get attached to something that will end up so meaningless and heartbreaking in the end. But I can't see myself loosing interest in her. It's not possible, because she isn't her. Don't get me wrong she is one person, but she has so many different aspects how could you possible classify a human so breathe taking into one category? When I see her I get so happy from the slightest side swipe and glance at her smile. She is always smiling but, then again, there's so much sadness in her eyes. Her beautiful brown eyes. I can tell she's on the brink of being broken, but there's nothing you can really do when she plays it off so well.

The sad part is, there is always something you want to say, something you want to do, believe me it's going to hurt so badly, because it's worth it. And whether you are 14, 26 or 65, you are going to stumble upon someone who lights up a fire within you that you cannot put out. However the most awful truth you will come to find, is, that they are not always who we end up spending our lives with.