Evë's World :)

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Drawings hard. I hate drawing. And painting. And anything involving art. No, that's not true... I love art. I don't know anymore, I just don't know.
Year seven was okay... New attitude to life, cringey AH selfies and a bulging pencil case. Year eight was a but more stressful - Maths became double maths and then choices came into play and I didn't really know what to do.
Year nine came around and all of a sudden I'm down to one pencil I had found under my mates chair in science and the hell ridden curse of triple science happened.
And then...
The worst of them all. Year ten. Now I'm not saying that year eleven won't be tripley terrifying but year ten has been the worst so far. I mean I'm up to date with what lessons I want to do. I chose them yonks ago and I guess its good because I got to push away all of those lessons I knew I didn't have a future with - sadly maths wasn't a part of that group *cry laughs* - So really I should be able to focus on the lessons I know are included in my future.
But what if you don't know, you know?
What if at the start of year nine you thought you knew exactly what you want to do, but now, you just have no idea?
I mean it's nice I can kind of focus more on some lessons; but now it just means that all the lessons that you do are super important and you can't really waste any of them like you could before - because back then you knew you'd be dropping them in a year or so so it didn't really matter.
Plus, now that it's got to taking those lessons 'full time,' you can get bored of them.
Like art. I didn't think I'd ever say that. I've loved art for ages and I could never have imagined giving it up. But now I'm ankle deep in homework and pencils and a drawing with a wonky nose and I'm seriously considering it.
ARGJSHDHJDJSGH!
WHY IS GROWING UP SO CONFUSING. Why can't my art teacher understand I need more than twenty four hours to draw an in-colour portrait and put it in a black and white collage. I mean drawings hard.

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Sorry, that's all I got for now :/ It's not too great but I have major writers block ATM but wanted to write anyway... So I started fresh. I still need to think of a title for this and if you're confused about the character then don't worry it will all come clear soon... I hope I get chance and remember to finish this story. ~ Amy "Turtle" :)