Dead In Love || Garmau FF ||

F I V E

~•Aphmau's POV•~

      We arrive at the carnival in 20 minutes and I already feel like breaking down on the spot.

      Why would anyone think this was a good idea?

        "Alright! Should we go our separate ways and find each other later or just go around in one big group?" Katelyn asks.

        "Well, I guess since last time we all came here we were all separated in a way we can do the same," Laurence suggests.

        We all end up agreeing and Aaron seems to be the happiest, great.

         "Let's go get cotton candy first, Shu," Aaron grabs my hand and takes me to a nearby shop.

          "Aaron," I stop in my steps, making him pull on my arm.

           "What's up?" Aaron turns around.

          "I.. I don't like it here," I look around, everything comes back to him.

           "Come on, Shu. Be a little more open, we haven't gotten to do this! You always went with Garroth," Aaron frowns.

          "Please don't, this already reminds me so much of him and I'm not in the greatest terms with you," I step back "is it possible to get this over as soon as possible?"

          I try to seems as calm as can be, fighting voice cracks, stutters, tears, breakdowns, and just drama.

         "Sorry, Aph, im not letting that happen, we need to regain all that love that was lost," Aaron again, starts walking and leading me to wherever he wants to go.

         "Aph," Aaron looks back, still walking.

        "What?" I say, a very stern voice compared to his sweet voice that once filled the void in my heart.

         "I love you," He smiles, obviously trying to make me feel better. But it won't work, it never will.

        "Aaron," I sigh "let's just keep going."

•••

          Me and Aaron had basically roamed the entire carnival head to toe, I wouldn't say that I didn't enjoy it, but I won't say I did. I couldn't stop thinking of him. And imagining him beside me instead of Aaron.

        "It's time to go to the Ferris Wheel, our main event," Aaron smiles warmly, he does look happy.

        "Aaron, i really want to leave," I'm not excited for seeing this whole carnival taking all that in, since I've done it before with someone else. It's not gonna work out.

        I can already feel all these emotions bottling up, ready to explode like a champagne bottle.

But right as we're about to hit the top of the Ferris wheel, I second-guess myself. Maybe his isn't so bad?

"Earth to Aphmau," Aaron calls.

"Huh? Sorry," I take my eyes off the sight.