[YamaChine] Wait

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Title: Wait

Pairing: Yamada/Chinen

Author: vitaminchii

Genre: death, angst

Summary: Yamada has a car accident. Chinen knows about Yamada’s true feelings for him but it is already late. My summary sucks.

A/N: Actually a songfic, inspired by David Archuleta's Wait. *coughs*. I'm supposed to be watching some Jdoramas but due to my fail connection, I couldn't watch peacefully. 

- Rushed and unbeta-ed, so this might be boring. XDD

I can't sleep I'm feeling wide awake

Tonight is taking it's time

How much more before the morning breaks

And I can leave it all behind

It’s already been a month since you’re gone but still, I cannot forget you. How could I? You are my first love, my first man, my everything; though we didn’t last long as you left me so early, not having enough good memories to be treasured, not having sweet memories to be remembered forever. We haven’t been completely a real couple. Why Ryosuke? Why did you leave me? I am not complete without you by my side, or even when you are not around. I want you to be here, but since it is impossible, I want you to take me wherever you are, since, it was really my fault. If only I didn’t act so childish and immature, maybe we wouldn’t had that fight. I won’t run away carelessly and you wouldn’t chase me. Then maybe, maybe … you wouldn’t be hit by that red car.

I’m sorry Ryosuke, I’m sorry.

Those scenes hit me so badly every day, every night. I couldn’t sleep as I remember how you got knocked on the street while the rain was pouring hard. How you smiled so weakly when I hugged you in my arms while you are full with blood and told me how happy you are that I stopped running in the rain and that I’m back in your side. Are you stupid huh? Are you?

'Cause every time I try to close my eyes

I only end up seeing memories of you

And it's never enough I'm waiting

“Y-Yuri … y-yokat-tta”. That’s what you said to me. You were grateful for what? Grateful for being hit and by being covered by own blood? Geez.

Everything that happened on that day is still clear in my memories. We were so happy in the morning as we decided to went fishing and went back home in the afternoon. We went to an amusement park after and took some rides. I felt so happy at it seems to me like we were dating. It was actually a date, right? Tell me, it was! Since it was the first time you asked me out, with only the two of us. Normally we would be enjoying the weekend with Dai-chan and Ryuu-tan, but at that day it was only you and me, so I was really overjoyed.

But the rain ruined our date. It ruined everything. Sure, we had enough spending our times in the amusement park, but for me, those were not still enough. I want more of your time; I want to spend the rest of my time and life with you forever.

“Oh, it’s raining Yuri, let’s go home.”

You took off your jacket and placed it around my shoulder, covering my head with your two hands. At that time, you were so closed to me that I felt something hot on my inside that made me blush. I held your hand and pulled you on a nearby waiting shed, there, I told you to wait for the rain to fade as I was so confident that it would end soon.

But the rain was so stubborn and didn’t stop pouring. I saw you shivering in cold. I knew you didn’t want your shaking to be obvious but I did notice it, so I gave you back your jacket but you’re ceasing me to do so. Instead, you put it back on my shoulders again. Then I pouted.

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