Fixing Nico [boyxboy / yaoi]

Ch 13 - "Kisses are a Better Fate than Wisdom"

~CHRISTIAN~ 

Sophie and Nick came home to find a silent house, and three brooding boys in three separate rooms. She stuck her head through the thin gap of the door to my room and, with a slightly nervous smile as she tucked her dark hair behind her ears, asked; 'Hey, Christian, are you… you know, okay?'

I fought back the frown that was pulling my lips down, forcing my mouth up instead into a reassuring smile. 'Yeah, I'm great. I'm just a bit tired, you know?' I laughed breezily. I sudden warm feeling of comfort spread across my chest… smiling, laughing, lying, pretending I was everything was great… this was what I was good at. This was what I knew how to do.

I smirked slightly to myself. Maybe I should take up acting.

'Oh,' Sophie said with a relieved chuckle. She was so sincere… sometimes I had to remind myself that the only reason she worried so much about my happiness was because of my father. 'Well, that's good to hear, I guess. Dinner will be ready shortly.'

'Okay. Thanks,' I beamed back, waiting until the door was shut with a firm click to let the grin drop flat from my face. Sighing, I rolled over to my side and glared at the plain, white walls next to me.

Everything has gone to the shits, I grumbled inwardly, the realisation hitting me with a stinging slap. Chase mouth-raped me and Nico is in-fucking-sane.  

With a gloomy glower, I recalled exactly what had happened that moment, three hours ago, in the dank hallways of Nico and Chase's holiday home… I'd dropped off the glass of water and pills on Nico's bedside table, only to find him peacefully unconscious… he looked like a sleeping Angel, his almost-white skin seemed to glow slightly in the hazy light of the setting sun… The day has gone so fast, I remember thinking.

His slow, steady breaths were going in and out… I was about to crawl gently and silently into bed with him, just to watch his face his beautiful, pale face as he slept, when the low growl of a car engine and the subsequent click! of the door opening and closing alerted my to someone else entering the house…

My blood began to grow hot, my temper flaring up momentarily as I guessed who it was suddenly invading the stillness and silence of the house… I glower adorned my face as I stepped back out into the hallways, ready to confront him.

He walked down the hallway a few moments later, but he seemed… different, somehow. His sandy-blond eyebrows were furrowed over his deep, chocolate-brown eyes, and he looked troubled. His bottom lip was stuck out in a pout, like a sulking puppy dog, as he clasped his backpack to his shoulders and gazed down at the floor as he ambled towards me, so lost in thought that he didn't even see me in front of him. I felt my rage slowly begin to melt away as I watch Chase stumble towards me, so deep in concentration, his eyes riveted on the floor. 

'Chase,' I greeted when he was only a meter before me - suddenly, his head jolted upwards, his brown eyes widening in shock as he was instantly pulled from his brooding. He stopped, stumbling slightly over his feet in shock.

'Ch-Christian?' He stammered, blinking a few times before his expression suddenly hardened. His brown eyes lost their warmth as they flashed in cold malevolence. 'Didn't think you'd be out here… I thought you would've been inside a bedroom, fucking my brother,' Chase sneered, spitting the last two words as if they were poison. 

'Might've been just then,' I challenged - Chase winced slightly, but quickly tried to conceal it under another glare… Probably just disgusted by the idea of two men having sex, I reasoned.

Chase huffed, glaring down at his shoes as I scowled at him, my arms crossed, suddenly… nervous. 'Chase…' I began, on a softer note as I realised just how desperately panicked I was about the idea of my sexuality getting out, 'Chase, please, I know you don't like me… and - and I know you don't have a reason to do this but… Please,' I begged, 'please don't say anything about this. To anyone. I don't… I can't let this come out yet. Please.'