Today was a good day, school went well and it was fun. I get home and want to run, run away from everything. My hands they shake. My head it turns. I'm so happy with everything. But still at the end of the day. I fall with a gut wrenching pain.
My head is ponding. My hands are shaking. My lips are quivering. My eyes are trembling, then just like that, BAM. I wake up. My mind settles. My body feels normal... but then it happens again. And again. And again. And again. See your nightmares end, you wake up. My nightmares never end, but I always wake up even when I don't want to.
I wake up. It repeats. I wake up. It repeats. I ask my self questions that I could never answer even if I tried, and trust me I've tried. Why am I the one getting punished? What did I do? Why am I the one put in this hell? What did I say?Why am I the one imprisoned in my thoughts? What did I do?
I am Enedeam. I am 13 year old and I live in South Carolina. I am very troubled and depressed. I have a bit of a past but nothing too serious.
My water is clear.
My wrists are stained.
My face says happy.
But my eyes say pain.
