Fear Itself

Chapter 2

Seth - Who Is She?

"Bret, why are we here man, whose's your ex?" i couldn't keep the boredom out my voice, he's never spoke of this girl not that i listen to his ballshit anyway but still, i mean a few years ago he was with some girl, i never saw her so i didn't think it was a serious relationship, but hes adamant he has to see her. "Seth, dude shes coming just, keep an eye out a mousy brown hair girl with really bad dress sense, that's my ex", Ha he dragged me down here for that, she sounds well she sounds odd. im on my forth JD and coke, i see her,  this curvaceous woman standing looking right at our table, a look flashed across her face, then a smile crept up, she looks so desirable, a thousand thoughts crossed my mind, so many things i could do or say to her. "Bret, yo Bret look at the bar, the girl in black and blue" brets eyes barely looked in her direction, "shes out of your league, she looks to prissy for you, i mean you this tatted up singer, she looks like a COE or something", hes right she does look kind of classy, but class is something ive had a while to practice, "im gonna go talk to her", standing i felt the urge to run in her direction, but i didn't want to frighten her, just as i approach the bar i heard her voice, "Jack Daniels and Coke please",her voice was so, i don't know it was soft, but stern, she had a voice that shouts "don't fuck with me", and what do i do "that's a interesting choice for such a lovely looking lady, come here often?" WHAT THE FUCK! im such a dick, what a douchebag  line "come here often" she must think im such a dweeb,

all she did was smile, but i could see the wheels turning in her head, "is that the best line a handsome man like you can do?,"

FUCK!, why, wait, she thinks im handsome, that's a upgrade from, sexy, fit, shag able, she said handsome, but she still thinks im a dick for dropping 'come here often',"no i don't come here often do you?", i felt my face split in to, i don't know why but shes underestimated me, shes so cute, i wonder if she has a boyfriend, i slyly look round, trying to see if there's a man looking at her in a possessive way, nope, all alone. "Na not really, im here with my boy, Bret he's waiting for his ex, some kind of unfinished business, do you live round here", she gave me some cheeky smile that made my heart beat and sweat form on my top lip, that smile could so allot to a guy, i just want to here her voice again it feels like silk in my ears, the little intake of air she takes during a sentence, what the fuck man, i sound like a right weirdo,"oh kind of near here, anyway so tell me about your friend, what's his ex like, i might know her", why is she so interesting in brets life, that's abit weird why would she know his ex, its a big place round here, hmm,"well he's just told me that she's a 5ft5 mousy looking thing, who has the dress sense of a blind man, sound like any girls you know, oh and her names Sasha", by the looks of her she knows nobody like that, "OH Sasha, yeah i know her, were very close  very, very, very, close but the way you've described her, you obviously haven't seen her recently have you?", What? she knows the girl im describing, shes lying,"so can you tell us were she is?, is she here? i kind of want to get out of here and Bret wont leave until she comes", i didn't mean for it to come out how it did but she seemed not to care, she walked right past me i didn't know what to do, so i just went to walk back to our table, what a dick i ruin the one chance, with a girl whose smoking hot what the fuck. shes here, huh standing in front of Bret, hes just  looking her up and down,"whose your friend Seth?", walking round the table i sat in my original place next to Bret, she was breathtaking, i mean shes fucking hot, i couldn't help but smile, i knew Bret was smiling his "im a nice man smile" even though he just wants his ex to walk in the door, i watched as this woman pulled out a chair in front of Bret, she removed her coat and i knew, i knew she wasn't who i first thought she was, her blazer hid it, she had tattoos, these tattoos were amazing, her left arm covered from shoulder to wrist and her right arm only half a sleeve she was fucking amazing and her tits, my god, shes got quite a body on her, but she looked at Bret with determination, this girl, shes exquisite, the smile on my face showed her the appreciation she needed, then the world shifted. "Bret, stop looking at the door, what do you want?, i don't have all night",no way this cant be anyone he knows, i think Bret was as confused as i was, "Sasha?", what wait slow down this is his ex Sasha?, "well yes, i am Sasha, im just not the Sasha u knew, Bret, honestly i don't have all night what do you want?", i couldn't help it i need to say something, *Cough Cough*, "this is your ex?, this is not the girl you described, what the fuck man", this cant be man what the hell, Bret didn't answer, he didn't answer me anyway, i could see there lips moving but my ears didn't hear, why is she nothing like he described?, shes hot, how did he get her, i cant sit here and look lost, i slid on a sly smile so that they thought i was listening, my minds racing, "Sasha you don't know why your here, so how about you shut that mouth of your's, before it gets you into trouble", What? whys he talking to her like that, i didn't hear much of what was being said before but she looks fragile man, just then i saw it in her eyes, she likes that hes getting annoyed, she likes that Bret is losing his temper,"okay,so Bret how can i help you today?", that's to casual, shes trying to press buttons, FUCK!, this is awkward,"Sasha im here because when you left you left without saying goodbye, that's rude by the way, i looked after you, we was a good couple, and you left, i left you for two years so you could, 'find yourself', now i can see i shouldn't of let that, happen because you have ruined yourself, what is this tattoo's, make up, your clothes, the hair, what do you think your playing at, are you still working in a dingy little coffee shop",wait coffee shop, this isn't the girl who cheated on him isit, she left him for some guy who, well that's what he told the guys at the bar, that cant be her,"so let me get this right, you looked after me ?, we had a good relationship?, ive ruined myself?, my dear you abused me, verbally, mentally, and physically, our relationship was a sham, and the best thing about our relationship is that it ended, if you say ive ruined myself that your opinion, but i like how i am, oh and Bret everything i like about myself now, is everything you forbid me to do while we was together, i hate to say you wasted your time coming here, but that's what it is, wasted time, i say we leave it at that", i could feel my blood boil if i need to know what really happened because if i don't this will drive me crazy, i saw her about to stand, i wanted to get her attention, but something got my attention first, brets hand flew out and grabbed her wrist, i was using all my strength to hold myself back, no one should touch a woman like that, ive seen this to many times and i know how it ends, "Sasha sit the fuck down, and don't make a scene you spoilt little daddy's girl", daddy's girl? who is this girl?, all i can see is his hand on her wrist and hes squeezing, Na i need to do something, "whoa Bret, calm down relationships end, shit changes, leave it now man, what the hell, and let go of her wrist, your hurting her man", i didn't look directly at Sasha but i saw her wrist disappear under the table, he did hurt her, fucking cunt, i felt myself want to lung at him,  "Bret, i have to go, it was nice seeing you, but it was over 2 years ago, aint nothing gone change that, i wish you all the best i really do", i can tell she wants out of here, now i know why i need to know, she reminds me of them!. she stood and grabbed her jacket, Bret sat in silence with a look of disbelief on his face, she isn't the girl he told everyone she was, something went on here, "farewell Bret look after yourself", she turned in slow motion her eyes were glassed over, she'd broken, "imma walk her to the door be back in a sec", i need to be alone with her even if its for 5 minutes i need to know what happened, following her to the door she peeked up at me with a sad look in her eyes, "thank you Seth, but you didn't have to do that, i don't want to cause trouble between you and Bret", oh my dear girl, fuck Bret, stepping out side the bar, i saw a little alleyway to our left, and i could see Bret looking thought the window directly at her, grabbing her arm i walked into the alleyway,"SETH NO!", her shout was a shock, what did she?, why would she say no?, "Sasha, what the hell" her eyes were closed, her arms were rapped around her upper body, he seriously fucked her up "i didn't mean to scare you, im sorry, i just didn't want to talk right outside the pub, i didn't want Bret to see us", i could see her shoulders visually relax, i need to talk before she runs, "what did he do to you Sasha?", her eyes widened "what made you leave?"her lips parted slightly "How did you relationship start?"her eyes became blank"Sasha? you okay?" she looked shocked for a second, then head held high she hissed "Seth that's really non of your business" her head fell, and her voice became a whisper "and you really don't want to know", i cant take this, i don't even know this woman, yet shes effecting me like this, i need to see her eyes, she needs to understand, lifting her head, i said what came to my mind,"Sasha im not here to be nosy, im not here to pretend, cut the ballshit, when you walked in you was as confident as hell, and sexy as fuck, one conversation with that jackass in there and you leave like this"

waving my hand in her direction was the only way i could describe how he made her feel, i knew she understood, she just didn't understand why, "you don't know me Seth", i cant tell her in the street i need to want her to tell me, shes spend years running from this buffoon, maybe i should just let her go about her business,nodding and saying "fine" was all i could do turning, i felt like a idiot, why am i letting this go, ive seen this sort of thing before, im not about to let another female go thought it, but i cant make her want to let me in, the others didn't, "fine, Seth ditch Bret, and meet me at mine in a hour, don't let him know were your going, or were i live, just come, give me your number ill text you my address", wow, what the hell was that about maybe she does understand. no, she wouldn't, she doesn't know anything about me, but i need to know about her, i just need to, we were both walking back towards the main street when she stopped, head down mouth open, "what isit sash", i looked over her shoulder to see what had gotten her attention, it was her phone, someone had text her, her breathing was harsh, the text wasn't something your best friend would send, then i saw my name, i knew it was Bret,

*Have Fun While It Last, ill let Seth get his few minutes with you, whore, i don't mind sharing, do i sashy? remember that but your not his type so i don't have to worry about that, just blow him and let him go.*

don't mind sharing?, whore?, what the fuck does he know about my type, blow me?, i could feel my blood starting to boil, he shared her?, what the fuck, wait no maybe ive got it all wrong, she looked at me straight face, she looks broken, shes not the girl i just met in the pub, "Seth im no whore, the rest of his text is not what it sounds like", she looked beat, she looked hurt, destroyed, i need to comfort her but i cant not here, "Sasha, ive just met you and yet i see something ive seen in other people's eyes, one hour, your place explain to me then, i wont judge", she nodded and got in her cab. now, ditch Bret, that cant be hard ive been trying to ditch this prick for years. as i walked back into the bar, i had to control my anger, Sasha, what did he do to her, she thought i was going to hurt her in the alley way, he said he don't mind sharing, who says that,  i need to cool it or im seriously gonna hurt this guy.

"what took you so long dude, what ya do fuck her or something" his laugh sounded dry, like he actually thinks i did, i honestly fucking hate this dude, there's never been a time where i actually considered him a friend, im only here because all the guys placed bets on if his ex was actually as ugly as Bret said she was, "Bret imma head back to the hotel, i just need some sleep, our flights tomorrow were leaving at 10am, see ya tomorrow" and with that i left to go back to the hotel, "Yo Seth, wait up you okay?",Bret leave it man, "yeah just tired and we have a show tomorrow, don't come back to late or ill leave without you tomorrow", having to force a smile and a fake laugh is killing me, i just need to get away from him. facing the road i stopped the first cab i could.

i feel like im  twiddling my thumbs in this cab,my mind is playing games, as soon as i get to this shitty hotel, ill just go in pack my shit and take it with me, i don't know what time i'll make it back,on the safe side its better for me to take it with me just in case i don't have enough time to pack it when i leave hers. tonight could chnage so many things, or it could prove that a pussy can blind any man.