Guilty Consciousness

Luna

Sitting on the floor was Luna Loud, in her room where she only see darkness. No light was on and the night skies didn't provide any vision for her to see. Next to her was three glass bottle of beer. She grabbed one of them and begin to drink the liquid. The taste of the alcohol was satisfying to forget what she has done. She was depression, but by what? What can a energetic young rocker be so depression to drone her sorrow with liquor? What is it?

A voice begin to sing in her head. A voice that sounds disgusted, disturbed by the teenage girl.

You're the reason why Lincoln is sad.

Why did you make him your toy?

You must have gone mad!

You know he's just a young boy.

I know your secret, you should not forget.

Don't let me tell your family you're dirty deeds.

You're the only one who had those needs.

She begins to tear up with the voice's words. But then another voice appear in her head. A voice that sounds cheerful, happy by the teenage.

Don't worry girl, you did what you did.

You loved him so much you couldn't hold it.

Butterflies were in your stomach when you kiss him.

You must be happy to reveal your feelings for him.

Why does that makes you a monster?

You didn't put him in danger.

Then the previous voice came back. It continues to shame Luna by her action.

No you can't.

This is bad, don't you understand.

You try you're best to resist.

Now you're depress from this.

Was it worth it?

You forgot to think about his care my dear.

You forgot to listen to him when he was in tears.

Then the second voice begin to speak again. It continues to support her from her action.

There was no such thing.

You love it when he moans.

The sound was great like when you sing.

The feeling was great when you groan.

He liked it when you was making love.

It wasn't from lust, so he enjoy very much.

The two voices was driving her crazy. One was the angel who wants her to feel guilty about her action. The other was the devil who was comforting her. She didn't know what was worst, to be shamed from her sin, or to be proud by her sin. It was like a tug of war between good and evil. What will the young rock star choose?

Without thinking, her body start to stand up. She begin to take a few steps ad she staggers from the door. Her hand turn the doorknob and open the dark. She step out to look around the hallway.

Then the voice of the angel came back.

What are you doing?

You're staggering can't you see.

Where do you think you're going?

I know where you want to be.

You want to meet him again.

You should not do it again!

So much you have cause,

Now you want go, just pause.

Lincoln is already hurt by your action.

Now you want to go again without any reflection.

You must be this evil to go in,

For you have turn into a villain.

Luna, who was still drunk under the consumption of alcohol, pause at the middle of the hallway. She looks at Lincoln's door, which was very close. She blinks from her weary eyes as she was stuck.

Then the voice of the devil came back as well.

Do you remember when you told him those bedtime stories?

Do you remember when you were the one to hold him when he was little?

All those things you have done for him to not look boring.

His care for you was the start from your taboo that you settle.

All the feeling you have been holding.

Now you show it to him to see it's golden.

So much you have done to make you love him more.

He was the best brother you enjoy to adore.

So go to him if you want him to love you.

Don't you dare feel so blue.

There's the door you should go in.

Now just go and you're urges will end.

The teenage rocker begin to approach her little brother's door. She look it closely with her heart aching to see her sweet little brother. She reach for the doorknob, and with a lustful grin, she opens the door.