balconies • seventeen

brains & beauty

Song: World's End Girlfriend - 点在について

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The person who has everything now, once used to have nothing at all.

That was the epitome of Hong Jisoo.

Why does that sentence explains his life so much? No, it doesn't just explains his life, it describes it. It defines it.

It was true. Jisoo used to have nothing at all. No friends, no joy, no nothing. The only thing he had was his parents and his studies.

During high school, Jisoo was isolated. Why?

Under his bed lies a box of rotten, ugly memories of his past. It was undeniably horrible, and Jisoo hated those memories from the bottom of his heart. It was filled with childhood photos and school related memorabilias. He had never enjoyed school. Ever. If only his friends stopped insulting him.

Put a picture of the present Jisoo now and a picture of the past Jisoo next to each other and you'll see the prominent contrast.

High school Jisoo was fat and ugly.

The boy was just a late bloomer.

Flashing back to the days when he was fat and ugly and bullied and mocked by people. He wasn't severely bullied. He really wasn't. Just a few punching here and there, and a few jocks forcing him for his pocket money. Jisoo was too used to it all.

People didn't like Jisoo. Jisoo didn't like them either.

Everything had started in high school. Ah yes, a fat, ugly, acne-faced Hong Jisoo, who hated his own reflection in the mirror. Those days when his clothes consisted of the XL size and above. Those days when he was just so ashamed to go outside because he would be the center of humiliating, mocking laughter. Those days when Jisoo couldn't accept the changes that seemed to conquer his body.

First year middle school Jisoo was stick thin. He was loved. He loved anime, and even though he did, he was never a laughing stock towards his friends. Middle school freshman Jisoo was loved, was surrounded by people, was living his life. People stuck to him like glue, even the teachers.

They all left when his body changed.

On his first year of high school, when he had been fooling around all too much during middle school, his parents had put an end to it and homeschooled him. He was locked in. Despite all the knowledge that he has now, nothing could beat the wrath of being locked inside his house for so long. For two years.

The fact that Jisoo wasn't exposed to the world had changed him so much in so many ways; less talking, less trying, less everything. His mind consisted of education and even more knowledge, nothing else. Jisoo became introverted, unable to speak out his thoughts or stand up for himself.

His worst nightmare was enrolling into high school as a third-year. His parents had sent him far away from home to live in the middle of the city, to get into one of the top schools in Seoul. The people whom he knew there, his friends; they all changed.

He was no longer the beloved Hong Jisoo — he was a thing to laugh at by his friends. Although scoring top scores in class, people had called him nerd, geek, teacher's pet; much more. For what reason were they hating on him?

Jisoo was blamed for everything.

Jisoo was blamed for the homework they got by the teacher when he accidentally did one extra page for revision. One punches, two, three. His money gone. His nose bleeding. His left eye purple and black.

Jisoo was blamed for their loss during their school sports festival. For not being able to run as fast, for not having as much stamina as they did. A kick in the stomach, a twist on the arm.