Psycho Lover | Ksimon

The first hit

Warning: Swearing
JJ's POV

I look down and see the scar on his arm, the bruises on his body and the tear in his heart... I want to get help ,but if I do I could end up in prison. I want help so I can stop this, lose the voices, let my boyfriend love me again. Instead of me forcing him out of my life. He's help me so much in my life but what do I give him in return, abuse, torture, near death experiences... My thoughts trailed of to when I first attacked, attacked him.
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Simons POV

"I saw you, I saw you with HER!" I shouted "Did you lie to me about being gay?!"
"I didn't do anything! I was just talking to her and of course I didn't lie to you about being gay!" I yelled.
"Then why was your tongue down her fucking throat?" I yelled my tears coming to my eyes.
"Hey! I didn't go to her she came to me and forced me to kiss her! Like you would no anyway!" He screamed. "You know what I'm fed up of arguing about you skipping to wrong conclusions!" He stormed out of the kitchen and walked upstairs.
"Where are you going? You could at least apologise!" I shouted "Jide I'm Sorry!" I said, there was no reply. I made my way upstairs and opened the bedroom door which had been slammed shut. He was sitting on his bed looking at the wall, I went and sat next to him "I'm sorry." He said still not facing me,
"It's ok, I'm sorry too." I said, a smirk came into his face, he turned and looked at him. I gave him a confused look. That's when his hands turned into fists, he swung at me and hit me clean in the jaw. I screamed in pain as he carried on punching me, he threw me onto the floor and kicked me in the ribs "THATS WHAT YOU GET FOR..." he stopped. I looked at him as he fell to his knees and began crying his eyes out. I was confused, I slowly got myself up and leant against the wall. "WHY?!!" He yelled "Simon I'm so sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry!" He said. He went to hug me but I shuffled away, I was confused but I was angry at why he did this. I got up stroked his cheek and walked downstairs and out the house.

JJ's POV

"What have I done I'm a monster, I've hurt him! I loved him and now I've ruined it I'll never see him again and he'll probably get me put in prison! But I deserve it..." I said. I grabbed a glass and threw it at the wall, smashing it "I hate these FUCKING voices!" I yelled. I sank to the floor and cried until my body couldn't let the tears fall anymore, my eyes slowly shut and I fell asleep.
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The next morning- JJ's POV

I woke up on the floor as I heard my phone buzz in my pocket, I got it out and looked at the message:

Simon ❤️: I'm still angry at you, but i feel like what you did you didn't mean could you explain? I still love you Olajide xx

I quickly replied

You: Thank you Simon, I'm really am sorry I don't no what came over me. Could you come over today or whenever your free? Xx

Simon ❤️: Of course I can come over today, promise me you won't do that again please xx

You: No I will never do that to you again! I love you Simon ❤️😘xx

Simon ❤️: I love you too💖xx

I put my phone back in my pocket, "please voices, please don't let me hurt him! I want him to stay in my life! I love him more than anything!"  I said to myself.

I hope I can control myself...

A/N- JJ now lives in a new house on his own he moved out of his parents