Pain of Acceptance (BoyxBoy) [The Pain series Book 2]

Prologue

He should never have returned. I was finally over the pain; the crippling, haunting nightmares that would cause me to scream myself awake every single night.

I didn't resent him for staying. His heart had clearly been torn – I could see the conflict swirling in his tired blue eyes on the day we left him. But was I expected to simply put my life on hold in the blind hope that one day he might realise the mistakes that he'd made... that we'd both made?

Life waits for no-one. It ploughs on relentlessly, gathering pace with each year that passes. I was finally happy... not that I hadn't been happy before, but I was finally me. The full, unedited, uncensored me. I guess that's one thing that I had to thank Jason for. He had helped to break down the walls that I'd built around me when the world had become too harsh, too real.

I had been a coward before he opened my eyes. And since that moment, I had been blinded by his love; a love that I found it impossible to return until it had been too late. And now, having buried my desire in the deepest, darkest chasm of my heart where I hoped it would remain for eternity, he chooses to return and once again dive down into the darkness to shatter the happy future that I'd constructed without him.

I love Taylor. He helps me to shine brighter than I ever thought possible. But Jason was my first. You can never take that away from him, and he will forever have a hold on me for that reason.

My heart is torn... but right now, I'm not sure that I have the strength to decide just who holds my future in their hands. I have something far bigger to suffocate my days and keep me awake at night... and it could change everything whether I like it or not.