Chapter Twelve
Dib remained in an almost trance-like state for a few moments as he recalled a few memories of Zim. He took another deep breath before speaking again in a quiet tone. "Zim... He was pretty interesting."
"Yes? What is his personality like?" The doctor questioned, beginning to write again at the others decision to elaborate more on the subject.
Dib slowly looked back to the doctor, shifting in his seat as he considered the question. "Well, he was loud and obnoxious and would often insult the human race whenever he had the chance to. But, he was very proud of his race and his leaders. He made every attempt to take over Earth even if he failed every time. But I liked that about him..." Dib's voice trailed off some as his gaze lowered. "I admired that about him actually.."
Dr.Gaul hummed and nodded his head a bit. "Well, I can only chalk this up as more schizophrenia from how you say this. You seem very fond of this little delusion as well, which also tells me you have some repressed homosexual tendencies... Does that sound right to you?"
Dib's cheeks grew a little warm at this, eyebrows raising slightly as he looked back up at Dr. Gual. "W-what? I'm not gay.. I haven't even paid attention to my sexuality anyway.." The tone of his voice suggested otherwise though.
The doctor scribbled the word 'homosexual' very noticeably down on his chart. "Mhmm.. have you ever found yourself attracted to girls? Boys?" He questioned, looking up over his chart. "This Zim?"
The boy hesitated, shifting again in his seat. "Uh... I don't know I've never really found anyone to be attractive to me. But.. I guess Zim was different..." His cheeks grew a bit warmer at that.
Dr.Gaul nodded his head a bit at this. "Well, this is obviously another way you're trying to deny this underlying homosexuality. You should try to work that out with yourself as well. There's nothing wrong with playing pitcher-catcher with another guy."
Dib reached up to rub the back of his neck, his eyes flicking to the side again. "I guess.. But what would my father say about that? I'm sure he would feel more disappointed in me..."
Dr.Gaul spoke up at his comment. "Well, naturally children want the approval of their parents... but you can't let his rejection of it make you repress and deny it more. That will cause some major depression on your part."
"I just don't know how to walk up to somebody and express any feelings I may have. And I really just want Zim back.."
"Well, life is about taking chances. Sometimes you have to look into yourself to be able to reach them." He replied. "And if you can maybe find someone to occupy your time, Zim will go away and you won't need him back."
Dib scowled sitting up a little almost defensively. "Zim will always be a part of my life."
"He's just a figment of your sickness.." He sighed, setting his clipboard down. "It is a part of your life in which you must overcome."
"Whatever you say, doctor." Dib snapped resentfully.
Dr.Gaul hummed a bit. "Those anti-psychosis pills should also take care of that anger of yours." He commented as he watched him. "You're free to leave now then."
Without a second though, Dib was on his feet, shooting Dr. Gual one last frown before giving an unconvincing 'thank you' and heading out of the office in annoyance. He stormed down the hallway and approached the front desk and waited impatiently for the woman to notice him.
She finally caught on to him and grinned a bit. "Hello.. is that a prescription?" She questioned, taking the sheet of paper and reading over it. She frowned after a moment and headed off, collecting a bottle and handing it over to him.
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