If i could .

CHAPTER 1

"Get up Jane its already getting late" , my mother woke me up at 7.Always fearing that I'll miss my bus made me skip my breakfast on and off.The reason for that wasn't my first class.It had always been Alexander. Yes.Alexander was 3 years my senior and went to Washington High school with me.I being feeble,yet naughty kind of girl always rushed to sit in front and Alexander being stout,smart kind of boy,careless of the surroundings yet reserved with others sat down wherever he found a seat.The students of Washington High School used to laugh at us as to how and why were we friends .

            CHAPTER 2

Alexander had always been an amazing friend, a loving companion and a lot more to me.I couldn't ever explain if someone asked me of Alexander.What i just used to say to people when asked about Alexander was"He's more like an angry bird", which deep down i knew he wasn't.As mine's and Alexander's timetables used to be different we used to write on small papers and used to exchange to make small chit chat.I ALWAYS made an excuse of going to the washroom and somehow delivered it to Alexander.

                CHAPTER 3

I cherished every single moment with him,until the night of 12Oct came and changed everything..It was our final results declaration day when my father found out that me and my brother weren't doing good in school.I saw his lips moving onto words i couldn't understand.That was the thing i was most feared of, leaving Washington High School. All i could manage was i cried a lot.I even went to my father with my puffed eyes but in vain.It wasn't because I'll be missing my teachers,my other friends.I only thought of that one person I'll no longer be in touch with "Alexander".It was just because of Alexander.What would he think? Will he forget me?would he miss? Will he find a new friend?A lot of questions surrounded my mind at that time.But sadly i couldn't do anything.

                  CHAPTER 4
        
The very next week i was forced to go to Washington international school that was a few steps farther away from Washington High School.I ached for Alexander.Missed him. My face ached from the stress of the plastered smile i was forced to give to the new school mates as i was the "new girl"in the school.The only thing i hated about that school was that i was forced to leave my friend behind.Sitting during break times i used to wonder what Alexander might think about me? Will i ever see him again?I spent that one year praying that one day I'll get back to Alexander ,to my school and will cherish all those moments i missed daily.He never went out of my mind.Even though we were just good friends but there was something between us that made me feel in a way i didn't use to understand.Time passed quickly and things started getting changed.I still used to miss him but with the passage of time the intensity of that state started getting down.A time came when i barely thought of Alexander.The 9th day of December every year gave me flash backs of those bitter sweet memories.

                CHAPTER 5
Another year passed by and i got admission into a famous private school.I made new friends,grew up,and learnt a lot but still deep down in my heart i wondered about Alexander.I told my friend Anna about Alexander who always used to say "If he's meant to cross your path again he will.Just have faith" and in return i only used to smile and all i could always managed saying was"i wish" .I daily used to pass by those alleys leading to washington high school but never found Alexander. Luckily,me and Alexander used to live in the same town but in different spheres of existence.He made new friends,got into college, and maybe he forgot me even.6 years passed by with a blink of an eye,we grew up, we came to know new people and we changed.

                    CHAPTER 6
One day i came back home after a very hectic day and laid down on my bed as my routine was."Jane the dinner is ready",asked mum.I scattered all the tired pieces of me and went for dinner. After that i wanted to sleep.But as i again went to my bed i kind of wanted to check fb for once.The more lazier i acted the more the urge of checking it started irritating me.Finally i opened the facebook and there wasn't anything new. While scrolling down and feeling more sleepy i got a message.

             CHAPTER 7

As i opened the message it was Alexander Franklin .My feet got frozen to the groun,unbelievable thing was it!!!.I felt over the moon ,yes! Extremely thrilled,happy and nervous at the same time.All my questions were answered that he had not forgotten me, he still remembers.Still doubting my luckiest fate I answered his question "Jane"?? as ," Are u the one who used to be with me in Washington High School?" "YES" the answer came. *BUTTERFLIES all around* I won't reply my inner Jane said in nervousness. Getting out of that "freaking out" stage i replied him  at last. THAT was the moment i wanted to hug Alexander.Who was my Alexander and had came back.He actually never left .I did.Without telling,without seeing his reaction.I sometimes wondered if some of my friends had told him what had he said? After soothing myself up i exclaimed the joy by sending 2,3 messages at a time neglecting the fact that it was the first time we were talking after 6 long years.Before that i used to take that '6' years time period as an easy one to go with.That day i realized that wasn't a short time period.It really took years.
    
                CHAPTER 8
That day i realized it wasn't just friendship.I loved him. With all of my heart, with all of my life.We talked for an hour that day, and then all night i still thought it was a kind of dream,maybe a fantasy.But it wasn't.We were together again.Together again for that day only?For some years? For a life time?.Many questions were striking my mind that night,but i didn't have any of the answer.After that day me and Alexander started talking for quality time.I really wanted to tell him that i loved him a lot.I had missed him a lot.But then i thought it wasn't the right time may be.I couldn't control myself and the very next day i told him about all the emotions i had been having for him since i left WHS.He didn't response much, but i knew he did love me too.He being mature knew how to deal with the things.I being silly told him every now and then that i loved him.

                 CHAPTER 9
Beside those love things i started acting foolish.I don't know why did i do that? I started hiding things from him even the ones which didn't matter much.I wanted him to like me wholeheartedly,and even if i didn't want i knew he liked me that way.I stared acting dumb.We started breaking up into fights everyday .Just because of me.I didn't use to care much that time because i had taken Alexander for granted.I believed that now he'll never go .We'll be together no matter what.But things don't always go the way we want them to be.One day we broke up into a severe fight and that too was just!! Because of me! "Try not to contact me again",said Alexander.I didn't believe this.It got worst than i thought I'd be.I lost the one who meant the world to me.I lost everything!. You don't betray someone one day and call him your husband the next.To love someone is easy but to go with things nicely while being in love isn't.

                 CHAPTER 10

I didn't do good to him and to myself even. I hurt myself more than i had hurt him.Things might have went good if i didn't tell him that i loved him.Or if i hadn't made him shunned up with betrayal.I would've stoped him from going,but only if i could.
After some months we again started talking but completely in a different scenario.He became so formal.People say eyes are the windows to the soul never was that more true than with me.I could only reveal myself with my eyes.But I was a bit glad that he never left forever.He at least came back.Started talking.

             CHAPTER 11
Time heals every scar, every pain.Yes that's true, but what about the regrets?They remain!! People say regrets aren't regrets they're lessons, but they're not! A regret remains a regret. You count a diamond as a piece of coal when you have it and when you lose it, that one piece of diamond means the whole mine to you.I still wish and i still wonder what if things had worked differently? What if I'd never given him a chance to leave? I still can give anything to win him back.I still would've brought him back to me.But only if i could.