My Life, My Mind

~Ava~

The class drags on in a monotonous Morse Code while my eyes struggle to stay open. All we got was the syllabus! Come on! Then I can't help it anymore as I rest my head on the table and fall slowly asleep. Someone shakes my shoulder as I freak out and jump out of my seat breathing in and out really fast. "Hey, Hey, Hey. Shhh calm down it's me" Ian whispers quietly holding my hand as I freeze. Fear coats my eyes and I feel tears prick my eyes. "Shhh, its okay, come here" Ian directs quietly leading me to the lunch room through a hidden door in the back of the Science lab. He sits me down at one of the long tables. I'm shivering beyond belief now as he holds both my hands, and I instantly freeze. "You're okay, your safe now" Ian tells quietly as he leans against the table. "I don't feel safe..." I whisper barely above a whisper. 

"What's on your mind?" He asks as he lets go of my hands and crosses them in curiosity. I look up at him tears escape my eyes, I know I can't wipe it away risking my makeup to smear. "Um..." I say shyly barely above a whisper as I look down at my empty hands. Why is he so personal? Why is he so cute? Why am I so stupid? Why do I have to deal with this? Why am I crying? Am i ever going to amount to anything? What's going to happen? Is this when I die? I think rapidly. "Ava. Calm down its okay." Ian whispers in my ear. I freeze and look stiffly over, I didn't notice he sat closer by me. What I also didn't notice is I was shaking more in fear. Ian hugs me gently. I blush, but his touch. It calms me down as I can breathe again evenly. 

"Now, next class you have is with me. Computer lab." Ian mumbles as I look up at him smirking. "Since today is Syllabus day, the teacher is going to jabber the entire hour about the class..." Ian pauses as I hint something devious in his voice "I'm going to play games the whole hour" He chuckles softly. I stare confused as he helps me stand up and head slowly to the lab. "WCF..." He whispers in my ear as we sit down in the back of the classroom. I gawk at him and feel my mouth drop. "DragonMaster1246?" I whisper shyly and feel tears prick my eyes again. Ian nods and smirks as he logs onto the computer.