Rylin's POV
Recap: "What is confusing you?" He asked me
"You." I replied and he furrowed his eyebrows
"Huh?"
"You are confusing me" I said again
"Whats confusing about me?" He asked now confused.
"My feelings" I replied
"Don't you like me?" He asked
"Yes. A lot.. but its all so weird and different" I said
"Well. maybe you should get your mind made up about how you feel towards me" He said a little angry, shocking me.
"Okay well I am not used to relationships Jack. I don't know what I am supposed to feel and what it feels like to feel those things" I said
"Why are you getting so upset about it? You wanted to know" I said crossing my arms.
"I know what I am feeling thats why I am getting so upset. Because you just do not understand how easy it is to just know" He said kind of hurting my feelings
"Well I don't" I said sadly
"I don't understand my feelings for you Jack." I said not liking the fact we are arguing about something so stupid
"Why? What don't you understand about it? I UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS FOR YOU AND THEY ARE PERFECTLY CLEAR! Why is it so hard for you??" He asked, raising his voice but then lowering it once he realized he was getting louder.
I close my eyes for a second.
"Because. They are Different Feelings. I've never had these feelings for anyone before and its scary" I admit quietly, looking down sadly.
"Then why are you still here?" He asked
"If they are so scary why are you still here. You fucked me already. Wouldn't you have left by now?" He asked and I feel tears coming to my eyes but I don't let them fall.
"Because I like them." I replied not looking up to make eye contact with him.
"I like how when I am with you I just forget about everything.. I like how I have no worries. I like how I don't feel the need to go get drunk or just get entirely fucked up.. I like how my heart beats quickens.. I like the fire in the pit of my stomach that grows everytime you touch me or compliment me and just talk to me.. I like how you can call me beautiful or something and it make my entire day just because it was you saying it.. I like laughing with you.. I like hugging you and cuddling with you.. I like kissing you.. and holding your hand.. I like how when you smile or laugh it makes my heart skip a beat.. I like it all.. Its all so new to me.. And so so so different. " I said just looking straight at the wall. as tears slid down my cheeks.
"Like?" He asked
"What else do you want me to say Jack?" I asked him finally looking up at him.
"How about Love? Whats so wrong with the word Love? Do you love me?" He asked
"How the fuck would I know?? The only love I know is for my family... I don't want you to be my brother Jack. I don't know what it feels like to love a person who isn't my family because I never have before. You are getting mad at me because I don't Know. Well I am sorry that I don't know but there is nothing I can do about it because all you are going to do instead of telling me how you feel, is yell at me telling me that I should understand my own feelings and that I should be gone by now since we fucked already. So how about you save your breath and I get going?" I said standing up and grabbing my back packs and my phone and phone charger. I slid on my shoes and walked towards the door, him just standing there.
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Different Feelings// Jack Johnson Fanfiction
Fanfiction"I don't understand my feelings for you Jack" I tell him not liking the fact we are arguing about something so stupid. "Why? What don't you understand about it? I UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS FOR YOU AND THEY ARE VERY CLEAR! Why is it so hard for you...
