It Hurts

Memory

Maya:No,what makes you think i would do that Zay?
Zay:You looked really uncomfortable when we were talking about self harm.
Maya:Pff Zay don't dream too much.
Zay:Oh really?Then do something to make me believe you.
Maya:I don't have to because i didn't do anything.
Zay:Then show me your arms.
Maya:(furrowes an eyebrow)Zay c'mon,
you know i wouldn't do something like that.
I tried to walk away but Zay held my hand and pulled me back.
3rd Person Pov
Zay held maya tightly and pulled her sleeve up.And saw the faded scars on her wrist.
Zay:Oh Maya
Maya:You can't tell anybody
Zay:I won't
Maya:(sighs with relief)Good.
Zay:But...
Maya:What do you want?(says crabing)
Zay:If you tell me why did you do it?
Maya:I can't.
Zay:Then i'm telling everyone
Maya:Noo.Please don't.It was 8 years ago,it doesn't even matter.
Zay:YOU DID IT WHEN YOU WERE 7!? (zay yelles)
Maya:Yes.
Zay:Why?
Maya:I can't tell you.
Zay:Fine,but you're going to tell everyone today when i tell you to.
Maya:Why are you doing this to me?
Zay:Because i can not keep a secret like that and don't you think they need to know?
Maya:(sighs)Okay.
Zay:Good,thanks.Now lets go to class.
Zay smiles.
Maya also half smiles.
Maya's Pov
We walk into class and sit down.
After a boring ten minutes,the bell rings.
We get out as a group together and stop in front of the class door.
Riley:So we're going to Topanga's right?
Lucas:Yeah,sweetie
Riley smiles
But i can't watch that.
Maya:Guys i will be back in a minute.
Riley:Where to?
Maya:"Toilet"
They all laugh a little
I run to the washroom.
I look in the mirror
"You little weirdo,you like him.You like your best friends boyfriend.What a worthless friend"i say to myself
"I don't deserve him,im worthless.He will never like me"
I try to close my eyes but the second i close them all i can think about is cutting.
"No,Maya.You can't do this again"
"It's been 8 years,why now"
I start breathing heavily.
And then remember a memory.
"NO,Daddy please don't hit me.What did i do to you!?"i say crying.
"Shut up you little brat.You were born and that's enough"
"P-please" says five year old me crying.
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Heyy!So sorry for not updating,i was pretty busy.I still am but there are people who have been asking me to update so this chapter is kinda bad and short so,sorry for that but another chapter will be up soon!And thanks for reads , comments , votes.I appreciate you all,thank you💖