Abused angel

Chapter 10

*The next day*

When I get up, I'm greeted with a white large light. I can remember everything that happend with my mum. Tom comes over and hugs me and says: "We tought that you will be dead because your heart stopped beating for a minute." I say to Tom: "You know, my mum spoke to me when I blanked out. She said that we need we need to take of Jess for as long as see needs and that you are worth anything and anyone in the world and that nothing can't come inbetween us. "You know Nathan that I will promise that nothing or nobody would come inbetween us." I just give him a kiss on the cheek. He blushes very hard. At the moment the boys come back inside and see that me and Tom are way to close to be freinds. They also have brought Jess with them. The look in her eyes tells me that she knows what's going on. She comes to me , give me a hug and says: "I spoke to mum. She told me that you and the boys will take care of me and told me that she is proud of me for accepting your relationship. She also told me that she will take care of our dad. I'm also sorry for ending my life. I heard that my dad slapped you and I couldn't take it anymore." "You know that mum told me the same thing and yes we will take care of you." Tom give me and Jess a warm smile. I ask: "When can I get out of the hospital?" Tom says: "Tomorrow they want to make sure that their is nothing wrong with your body." "Oh, but Tom. Will you stay with me?" "As long as the boys don't suspect anything that would be fine but I don't know since that they walked in on us too close for being just friends." Max says: "You know Tom that we are still here ad why are we getting suspicious?" "Euh, nothing really important." "Yeah, it is nothing since you are holding hands." I look at out hands and see that indeed that we are holding hands. I don't mind but I am scared if what boys would think if they found out that there are 2 gay members in the group. I whisper to Tom: "You can say that we are gay since when we were teenagers but don't say that we are together yet." So Tom starts to explain his story for the beginning of the band. Max look at him like he is a monster and whisper yells: "You know that you should have came out and out of the band. Then there wouldn't been anyone angry right now!" I start crying at Max's words because that are the words that my dad used to say to me. It also reminds me of Jermeny said to me one time. He said that I was better of the world then on the world. He tried several times to kill me but never succeed at it because there was always my best friend who brought me every time the hospital. I am still crying at these memories nowadays. With my thoughts I never noticed that the boys are staring at me. They come over to me and give me a hug. Then I look into Max's eyes and say: "I know you from somewhere but not just of the band." His answer is :" Yeah, when I was telling at Tom and you started to cry, I know that I have made a big mistake. I knew that Jermeny always tried to kill you never succeed because I was always there for him to go to the hospital. I'm sorry for bringing bad memories back because I always know that you will be the one for looking after." "Wow, so you know each other for years, went to fire for him and you didn't even remembered him. Great friend are you." That is what Tom said to Max. So I ask: "If you we're saying that you don't like Tom being in a band because he is gay. Why did you helped me than?" "Euh, nothing that I know, maybe I was just caught up in the moment?" "You aren't just caught up in the moment Max! You know that this isn't just something!" I am furious with his actions. Why is everything always bad for me? "Nathan, there is more that you don't know. Jermeny is stalking us. He says things so that your father could come here. He treated me to rape me if I didn't help him. Wen I was younger I always came up for you because if him. Nath you know that we aren't going to be safe for a while if Jermeny isn't in jail." I look at him and feel like crying again. Why does everything happen to me? Why is it always me? Max looks at me like when we were younger. I know that he will help me like the old times but I have always wondered if he wasn't gay. I wouldn't care about it as long as he loves himself. Tim says: "Nathan, you know that no matter what happened and will happen, we will always help you." Now I know that with these five lads, I can fight against the world. I am smiling and we give a group hug. I hear the door open ad see that Jermeny is standing there. I ask: "What are you doing here?" he answer: "I just come by and visit you." I look at him with anger is his eyes: "you know you could just go away I don't fucking like you at all." "No Nathan I came to talk to you?"