RANTING VENTING THINGY
Oh god I feel awful
I hate when people get me presents and I don't like them
I hate returning them
It makes me feel like an asshole
I can't even believe that when I was younger I'd throw it to the side like "meh it's sorta shit"
And my mom had to tell me not to do that because "that's very rude, at least pretend to love it"
And that's what I try to do even when I hate it
And worst of all I never know what I want so people get me shit I don't like and I wish they could read my mind and hear "oh I'd really like this one thing" instead of hearing "oh I dunno I'll think about it"
It makes me upset I dunno
I just feel really awful
Lying is bad but the truth feels even worse
I don't know I just needed to say this because my dad's trying to return a Christmas present and i just feel so awful because they spent their money on this and my mom tells me "don't keep or buy anything you won't use" and now that plagues me
I can't buy anything without feeling like I can be free with what I get
I'm at the mall with my friends and I get a $7 figurine that's "looks decent" while my friends buy a cool backpack and stuffed animal and everything they won't use and I just ghhghshygh
I'm sorry I'll stop
