We met. We became friends and turns into bestfriends. Im straight back then and ur straight too and the time i met you i dont know what is this feelings. I think im gay for you. You made me fall for you. You made me love you. You made me happy. You made my day brighter. You made me, Me. But Im just a bestfriend to you. I kept my feelings to myself. I try to shrug it off but when we always together my feelings just like a whirlwind. It so fast and all my feelings are back again with just a second. Its hard to love you. You have a boyfriend. I always saw you two being sweet and i was just standing their watching you two do all lovey dovey around me. It HURTS SO DAMN MUCH. I FEEL LIKE MY HEART JUST SHATTERED IN MILLION PIECES. I always say im Tired but in the end of the day im just gonna miss you. In the end of the day i will always find the safety and love to you. I FUCKING HATE YOU FOR SHOWING ME THOSE AFFECTION THAT EVEN JUST A LITTLE BIT THOSE THINGS DIDNT MATTERRED TO YOU. HOW DARE YOU. YOUR SO PERFECT YOUR SO DAMN PERFECT. I cant even hurt you. I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH. i just wanna hold you and kiss you. I want to be with you forever. But i guess im the only one who dreams about that. But I always remind myself that As long as your happy with him then im happy to see you happy. Thats all that matters to me. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS.
I just wrote my feelings about my bestfriend. I cant fucking say to her. Because she doesnt know that i love her. I just want to let all my feeling out. Thanks guys