Broken (Wolfstar)

Chapter One

Remus's POV

'I. Can't. Do. It. Anymore! I can't be strong mum.' I thought as I stared at the stary night sky.

"I'll join you tonight mum" I mumbled.

I was about to jump when strong arms pulled me back.

"Don't do it, please" I heard the voice of Sirius say.

I breathed out a shaky breath.

"S- Sirius, I'm not strong, I can't do this" I said my voice cracking.

"Do what?" He asked.

"I'm gay, I'm in love with you and your straight, my mum's dead and my dad's a drunk and abuses me" I blurted.

Sirius stood there in shock.

"Just let me end.... I can't live, I want to see the only person that truly love me" I mumbled.

"REMUS JOHN LUPIN! DON'T TALK LIKE THAT!" He yelled.

"And why do you care! You don't care about feelings, everyone knows that! The way you jump from women to women! After Alex, you still never stopped! When someone dies you shrug it off like it's nothing! I'd rather die then live in this fucked up world!" I shouted.

I ran to the edge and jumped. As I was about to hit the ground I blacked out.

Sirius's POV

As Remus jumped I searched for my wand, only to notice I left it in my dorm.

"Fuck! No you don't Remus!" I shouted jumping after him but someone grabbed me.

I turned tears already spilling from my eyes and saw James. That's when we heard a sickening crack. We looked over the edge to see Remus lay on the ground motionless. I let out a loud sob. The person I have fallen I love with is dead.... But somehow I had a feeling that he wasn't. I got up and ran to down many stairs and outside to him. I fell to my knees and checked to see if he was alive. He was living!

"He lived!"  I shouted to James.

A smile fought it's way too his face. I gently picked him up and we ran to the hospital wing.

"Poppy!" I shouted.

A very tired looking Poppy came around the corner, and gasped when she saw Remus. She rushed us over to the bed and I gently set Remus down. Poppy shooed is away.

~Time skip~

James's POV

It's now early in the morning, Sirius was asleep curled up on the chair. I had to force him to go to sleep, he already hasn't been sleeping, he's been having nightmares about Remus's 'furry little problem'. He's not scared for himself, he's scared for Remus. Anyway I just woke awhile ago and waiting for Sirius to wake up, and Poppy to give me news about Remus's condition. I hate myself for not noticing how depressed Remus is. And the scars all over him. Those aren't all from him being a werewolf.... I'm so stupid! Every time we go back to Hogwarts, he is distant. He always looks so jumpy when we yell, or make a loud noise, looks really sad when I talk about my parents. How could I not notice! I looked at Sirius who looked really depressed, even if he's asleep. I bet he blames himself about Remus...... Sirius is in love with Remus, the reason he's always snogging someone is because he's trying not to think about Remus not loving him back. I was there the whole they talked, I was behind the wall. When Remus said he was in love with Sirius I knew that he was shocked as all hell. Poppy finally came out from checking on Remus. I look at her scared to ask the question.

"He will live, but he is going to be more depressed now that you guys know, he's ganna feel weak, like he shouldn't be there, so please be careful with him" She said.