One shots!

Why?LuciferXEmily(Supernatural)

I sat in my room. Why? I needed him and he wasn't there. "Hey Em. What's up?" Lucifer said poping in. "Nothing. What about you?" I asked putting the fake smile on. Please buy it. "You know I can read your thoughts?" He said sitting next to me on my bed. I weakly smiled. "Yeah. Worth a shot?" I asked He laughed. "Just assholes." I said "Did I drop by earlier?" He said I laughed. "Assholes not idiots." I said "My mistake. What happened?" He asked I smiled. He was always there for me. "I trusted someone and not a second later he stabbed me in the back." I said "Do I need to kill him?" He asked I laughed "No. I'm good. Just need life to go fuck off." I said He laughed. "This is why your the best." He said I laughed. "Yea Yea. What did you do?" I said he laughed and leaned in for a hug and I ducked out. "I won't let you butter me up. What did you do?" I asked He laughed. "I may have scared your neighbors by accidentally going to hi house." He said I laughed. "Your an idiot." I said "Yeah but that's why you like me." He said "Yeah Yeah. Go back to killing the planet." I said with a laugh. He chuckled. "Goodnight" he said "Goodnight Luci." I said as he disappeared. I let out a sigh. Why? Why did he have to make this so hard? I went to the bathroom. Grabbing the razor blade from the sink. He doesn't like you. Slice. He'll never like you like you like him. Slice. Just kill yourself. Slice. Just do it. Slice. Your a coward. Slice. I put the blade down. Why? Why do I keep trying? He hates me. I can't do anything. I'm a waste of space. He thinks I got better. Can't even do that right. He'll never love you. I grabbed the angel blade Luci gave me to protect myself. I'm okay. I'm fine. I'm okay. I'm fine. I'm okay. I'm .... Why? Death. The same number of letters as peace. I want peace. One stab. That's all it would take. Why can't I do it? Why? For him.