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"You cheating lying bastard!" Slap. "How dare you do this to me?!" Slap.

Her eyes were full of tears rolling down on her cheeks. I wanted to wipe those off. I wanted to hug her. I wanted to kiss her and make her feel loved. I wanted to do all those things at that time. Pero hindi ko kaya, nanghihina ang katawan ko. Hindi ko kayang gumalaw. Wala akong magawa kundi ang tumayo lang doon at tanggapin ang sampal at masasakit na salitang lumalabas sa kanyang labi.

Tanggap ko naman, eh. Gago ako. Isa akong malaking putanginang gagong naglalaro ng nararamdaman ng babae. Isang gagong walang ibang ginawa kundi ang ikama at makipaghalikan sa iba't ibang mga babae sa mga bar. Makipag-inuman kasama ang mga barkada. Walang ibang inisip kundi ang sarili lang. Ako't ako lang.

Ang gago ko, hindi ba?

Dinuro-duro niya ang walang saplot na katawan ko. She's cursing at me. She's hurt. I hurt her. The way her eyes expressed how much she loathe me right now, ang sakit makita. I wanted to cry. I wanted to tell her sorry. I wanted to tell her I love her. But I just couldn't. Right now, hatred is eating her up. And I couldn't do anything about it. Alam kong masakit, eh.

Magulo ang kwartong kinatatayuan namin. Nagkalat ang damit at pantalon ko pati na rin ang ibang undergarments ng babaeng dinala ko kanina lamang. I just wanted to go and have fun with my friends at the bar. Birthday kasi ni Tristan which is my best bu, kaya hindi ako naka-hindi. And there we got wasted and drunk. Hindi ko namalayan ang oras: 11:30. And when my sight reaches the date on my phone. I froze.

December 21: Anniversary with my Love, A.

Maraming texts and messages ang natanggap ko but because of my enjoyment with my company, hindi ko na nakita. Kaya naman, nagpaalam na ako sa kanila pero pinigilan ako ni Eric. He pushes me on the couch where we were staying and called one of his girls.

"Why don't you accompany him, Mae? I think, he's already drunk." Sumang-ayon ang lahat and even the slut giggles and sat beside me. Roaming her hands on my chest.

"No I can handle myself." I told the woman at bumaling sa barkada, "Bud, what the fuck? May girlfriend na ako, hindi ba? Nagbago na ako. I don't want a company." I said.

"Nagbago na nga ba talaga?" Eric smirked. Damn.

"Yes and I don't need anymore questions. Mahal ko ang girlfriend ko and I'm sure of it. Now, I need to go."

Nakakainis! Ang akala pa rin ng lahat ay pinaglalaruan ko lang ang feelings ng girlfriend ko. Just because I was once playboy doesn't mean I can't change. I'm a human, too. Humans can change into a better person. And Andrea was the one who changed me.

Andrea.

I smiled at the thought of her name. She's the only girl who can make me smile other than my mother. The only person who made me feel loved. As I think of her face, I could feel something in my body heating up. Her captivating eyes. . . Her cute small nose. . . And her lips. . . Those luscious lips of hers. Damn. I'm getting hard.

Natigil lamang ang pag-iisip ko nang may humawak sa gitna ko. Hindi ko na pala namalayan na kasama ko na pala sa loob ng kotse ang babaeng nasa bar kanina. And she grinned as she touches it. Fuck. Pero mali ito. This so damn wrong. Itinulak ko siya.

"What the fuck!?" I could feel my face heating up.

"What?" She says, innocently.

"Don't you dare touch me! And what on earth are you doing in my car? Umalis ka nga!"

"No. Eric said I should follow you. Ihahatid daw kita. Kung saan man ang pupuntahan mo." She grins.

"No! May girlfriend na ako. And I should be with her tonight. Not with someone like you. Kaya please, get out!" I unlocked the door for her.