Pokémon x Reader

Ash x Reader .I'm Sorry.

Ash x Reader .I'm Sorry.
Ash's pov
Friends.

That's what I used to believe on what I felt for her.

But when she left me, I couldn't bear watching it. I begged on my knees for her to stay but all of her patience, care and love was spent through my obliviousness. Every single day, I'll wake up without her smile and crazy antics. Even my Pikachu noticed how low my self-esteem is interfering with my daily life. My mother even suggested bringing me to a psychiatrist because of my drastic change. I always just say that I'm fine but obviously, that's far from the truth.

It was a normal day in Lumiose City of the Kalos region. We all decided to stop by Professor Sycamore's lab to trade stories of our findings and adventures. Professor Oak along with Gary and Professor Sycamore were in the middle of a video chat when we got in his lab.

"Ah, Ash and friends!" Professor Sycamore grinned. "Dropping by, I see?"
"Yeah! We just want to trade stories while we're here." I cheekily replied.
"HEY! ASHY!" Gary yelled angrily at the video chat that it made all of us cringe and cover our ears.
"What's the deal, Gary? I thought we're past these name callings..." I pouted.
"It would be if you didn't hurt my cousin's feelings! Stop promising her stuff when you can't even do it!" He lectured and glared fiercely at me.
I paused for a moment until it clicked to me. "...Oh no..."
"She have such a bright future ahead of her, Ash! But you took it all away..." As weird as it sounds, Gary started sobbing. "...You made her end it all..."
"Gary, I'll come back there as soon as possible. I pro-" I spoke quickly but got cut off.
"No! Don't you even bother going to her funeral!" He yelled and stomped away.

I was dumbstruck. I looked at Professor Sycamore then to Professor Oak only to have solemn looks given to me. I tried speaking but I couldn't find my voice at all. Serena along with my other companions looked at me quizzically.

"...What...w-what does Gary mean..." I gulped loudly and cleared my throat before speaking again. "What does he mean of her funeral?!"
"Ash, I regret to bring such a bad news to you but..." Professor Oak looked down and sighed in defeat. "(Name) committed suicide when you broke another promise of your return here in Kanto."

I froze and felt myself unable to breath. It could never happen, right? Why would she commit suicide? When did I broke my promise?
But now that I look back in all of my memories of her, I promised her that I'll come back to Kanto region at every gym match I won. Did I ever went there and meet up with her?

I didn't.

I got too occupied on my dreams that I completely ignored her. I keep making friends but I can't find time to talk to her. I have lots of leisure time in all of my travels but I never even bother checking up on her if she's still faring well.

I left the lab and head straight to the nearest Pokémon Center. I rented a room and cried my heart out, spewing regrets and what I should have done.

I ended up breaking down once again, remembering how I neglected her and not doing anything to compensate for it. I begged but... how would a corpse ever respond to the living anyway? I was so oblivious that I only realized how much I want to see her again when she forever gone. I only realized how I wanted to be by her side every single day, how I want to say how much I love her when it's all too late.

I'm sorry...
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If I was more attentive...
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If I don't have such an oblivious mind...
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You will still be here...
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We'll have great adventures together...
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And memories we'll treasure for all eternity...