What Jessika Wants...

'LOVE' , who knew such a simple word could make a difference in a persons life. I used to laugh at those girls who swooned over guys and pined for their attention. I had it set in my mind that i was above it all...that was until i met him and he changed my poor excuse of a life into the most wonderful days I've ever experienced. Now as i lay on my death bed looking my lover in the eyes,I know it was all worth it...the pain, blood , sweat , and tears was just the rising action to the never ending climax of our love....

chapter 1

Walking home as slow as humanly possible i repeated the story in my head,perfecting the lie explaining why the truancy officer was calling my house. 'i was in the library studing for finals,lost track of time and got marked absent'. Even in my head the story sounded flat and i knew it wouldn't get me off the hook that easily. My foster mother Shannon was nothing if not smart and that's one of the reasons why i loved her. She would see through my lie but i hope she would forgive me and not send me back to the agency. Thinking of that place now still gave me the chills and i couldn't believe that it had only been three years since my mom and dad died in that accident. Those foster care people promised that it was a better environment there than me living on the streets at age 14, but when i got there i saw a whole different story.... Snapping out of my revere i focused at the task at hand. I could not allow myself to think of my days there or id be back at the hospital suffering from blood loss.

Rounding the corner, I saw my house come into view. Thinking of how disappointed she would be with my ditching class, my steps began to falter. I didn't want to face her, but all to soon i was on my porch with the key sliding into the locks. "Mom, I'm home!" i announced as i entered the foyer. "I'm in the kitchen.",she replied in that monotonous voice that always made me flinch because she only used it when she was fed up. I knew what i did was wrong but i had no idea she would react this way. Cautiously walking into the kitchen i had my head hung in shame. "hey",i tentatively said, looking everywhere but at her. "Why?" she whispered in a voice so hurt that it almost broke my heart. Finding courage i never knew i had i lifted my head to look into her eyes and my lie died on my lips. I couldn't lie to her, she truly loved me and i hadn't felt loved since my parents died. I couldn't look into the eyes of the woman who gave me everything and saved me from the torture i had endured for a year and a half while i was in foster care. "Why!?" she asked in a stronger voice that had tears pouring from my eyes at how deep my failures cut her."I-I don't know", I replied in a pain stricken voice."I'm so sorry,just give me another chance ad i promise i wont screw it up!" i pleaded with her before she got a chance to utter the words i had feared hearing her say since she saved me.I saw the internal war that was waging in her honey eyes and i knew my eyes were a stormy gray from the raging emotions in me. Standing in front of her i braced myself for the words that would send me back to that hell hole... but they never came. Letting out a loud sigh she motioned for me to come to her,and on weak knees i happily obliged. Taking staggering steps i all but fell into her arms and cleaved to her for dear life. This was love,this was home.

Later on that day i found myself lounging on the couch with Shan watching 'Pretty Little Liars' and eating raspberry sorbet. We did this every Monday and deemed it 'girl time!'."Guess what!?" Shan squealed excitedly. "What!?!" i asked equally enthused. "The new neighbors finally moved in!!!"she exclaimed, "Annnd i heard they had a hot son ." she stated matter of factly which caused me to groan. 'Just because I'm bi doesnt mean im dieing to be in a relationship' I commented mentally. "moom!!" i whined disapprovingly."whaat" she said playing innocent. "What does the fact that they have a "hot"son have to do with me?" I asked, air quoting the 'hot' part."Well, i just thought that maybe you should start dating the opposite sex" she declared in that same innocent voice; still managing to stress the word OPPOSITE to make sure i knew that she didn't approve of my previous relationships.Well i had a few choice words to say about that,but instead decided to placate her and say,"maybe your right mom.mabe your right".

The next day at school the halls were abuzz.Every one was talking about the new student and how hot he was. All i heard was 'OMG he is H-O-T!!' and ' Look at that ASS!' not to mention those ever popular cat sounds made by the slutty popular girls,'prrrrrrr-fect, he's MINES so back down bitches!!!'. i couldn't help but chuckle and roll my eyes; seriously!? placing dibs on a boy was just plain wrong and it showed how desperate they all were. Puttng in my buds and blasting Green Day's 'boulevard of broken dreams' i drowned out their ridiculous fawning. I was walking slowly to my locker without a care in the world... until i saw the crowd around it. 'what the F-' my mind screamed until i saw what all the commotion was about. standing before me was the most perfect guy i had ever saw. He looked as if the gods carved him themselves.I stood there ogling him, committing his every detail to memory.He had golden blond hair, alabaster skin,and electric blue eyes,the most perfect nose i've ever seen complimented with a finely chiseled square jaw.His body was nothing but hard muscle under his tight black hollister shirt that not only showed off that perfect form but also allowed me to see his sleeve of intricate body art. Looking lower i noticed the butt every girl was talking about covered in some dark washed skinney jeans complimented by classic black and white converse high tops.He was easily 6.5' and was drop dead effin gorgeous. But topping the chart on my sex-omeder was his lips; they were full, pink, and oh so appealing. His snake bite piercing in the lower right corner of his mouth upped the sex appeal 1000%! Looking at this perfect male i couldn't help but think dirty thoughts.I wanted him,I needed him,and i was GOING to get him.

As if summoned by my stare,he turned and looked at me.the electric current that shot through my body was so strong that i could no longer remain concious. So as i faded into darkness I had one final thought...'Mine'......

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sorry its short but i hope you liked it so far! its my first story so i hope you'll comment and tell me what you think...next chapter comming soon(: