I am interested in small things, stuff other people just dimiss. This either irritates people or fills them with the same kind of wonder. This is how I sort out friend for ordinary people. Alot of the time i am kind of just there physically not mentally. People say my mind wanders and this is the best way to describe it.
Sometimes I say a word over and over until it doesn't sound the same. So I write little dictionary notes everywhere
wander [won-der] verb 1. to ramble without and definite purpose or objective; roam, rove or stray : to wander over the earth 2.to go aimlessly, indirectly or casually; meander
wonder [wuhn-der] verb (use without object) 1. to think or speculate seriously: wonder about the origin of the solar system 2. to doubt : I wonder if she will really get there
insomnia [in-som-nee-uh] noun 1. the inabilitly to obtain sufficient sleep, espcially when chronic; difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness
When I can't sleep I think my mind wanders and wonders. Who made the Earth? If God did why would he make his creations kill one another? Why do arguments happen? Is it just harmless stuff rolled into one. Some good mostly bad? I have no answers to the questions but questions like these keep me up into the early hours in the morning.
If my mind is empty but not tired I go lie on the grass outside and look up at past, millions of stars that have seen the erth through millions of years. When this happens I know I belong somewhere. In the cool night air I sometimes find myself drifting off. Once or twice i have woken up with the early morning sun on my face and a grass pattern on my legs.
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I stand thigh deep in the cool water that helped so many through burning days. My friends stand side by side ready to jump int the murky brown water beneath
