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by sadboigina

by sadboigina

It's been a week since the move and it feels like I've been here forever. Literally the same things occur day in and day out. It's a bit comforting.

*School Bell*

I picked up my belongings and made my way to the lunch room, sitting in the same table as I did on my first day. The boys seemed to not mind me much after what happened and we actually got along quite well.

I took out my bento and a larger one for Jungkook and Jin. I've noticed that they stare at my food often, so I decided to bring some for them.

"Omo! Noona, are you going to eat all of that by yourself?" I laughed at the boy and pushed the massive container over to him.

"I wish. I brought some food for you and Jin oppa, but I'm sure there's enough to share with the rest of you," I say to Jungkook as the rest of the boys sat down.

They all stared at me with a weird look in their eyes. I stared back with my eyebrows raised.

They didn't seem to change their expressions so I continued eating. Food is obviously more important at the moment.

"Wah! Thank you!" Jungkook opened the box and widened his eyes so much I thought they would pop out of his head.

"You didn't have to do this, but thank you," Jin said.

"No problem, I never had any friends to share food with before anyways, so my aunt was more than happy when I told her I wanted to bring some." I took a sip of my strawberry milk before coughing on Yoongi's comment.

"You live with your aunt? Where are your parents?"

I heard him hiss at someone for hitting him and someone else scolding him for asking such a question. I'm not going to lie, it was a bit inappropriate to ask at the moment, but it was bound to happen sometime.

I didn't realize I closed my eyes until I opened them and tried to form words but I couldn't.

"They um- they..." I felt a tear fall down my face and was annoyed because I did my eyeliner this morning.

"They passed when I was 9. I've been living with my Aunt Eunhye since..." That seemed to shut them up as after I said it, they all fell silent.

"It's fine though, I love her, she's an amazing woman and her husband is a great guy. Don't worry, people ask a lot." No they don't, but it would be rude to say they did.

I looked up at the boys and automatically started feeling anxious as the atmosphere was tense and they all seemed to be focused on me. All of them except for Yoongi. He looked away and looked extremely guilty, which he shouldn't. He was only curious.

I got home and walked sluggishly up to my bedroom and plopped onto my bed, sighing deeply and closing my eyes for a couple of minutes. I pulled myself up and dragged my legs along the floor into my bathroom where I opened the mirror cabinet and took out my anti-depressants.

I've dealt with it for almost five years now, but still haven't gotten used to taking them daily. I shook two out of the bottle and swallowed them down with some water from the sink.

I couldn't be bothered to go downstairs for a cup.

I then took a long bath and changed into an extremely large t shirt with long socks and crawled into bed, forgetting about homework and people and everything in life except for one person.

Yoongi.

so, i'll try to update?? please don't expect too much but i'll try my best

gina cecilia