Levi's POV:
It's been two years, living by myself, finding my way through societies new rules, looking for the light in this new uncanny thick darkness.
You would think I would be happy now, two years of peace. Peace from the titans, peace from the overwhelming fear of being eaten. Peace from the shuddering breath of the early morning dawn, not sure if you would see the same ceiling ever again.
Peace from the death, the blood, the action, the horrors of the real world and all it brought.
It was beautiful, quiet. The world had a new glow, it had a new shine to it that no one had ever seen before.
Yet, with all the silence comes all the memories.
Being a soldier in the Survey Corps grows on you, you start to wake up earlier, expect the worse and prepare for the threat of death.
Each day merges with another, the concept of time blurs in the overwhelming urge to stay breathing.
I was Captain Levi Ackerman. 'Humanites strongest', 'Cold, and fierce'.
Even if I came across as heartless, even if I was cold to the world...
One particular ray of sunshine cut through my thick facade of blankness, it was stunning to say the least. Color was seen through my world each moment I laid my eyes upon his beautiful self, his personality seeming to shimmer and glow, nothing phasing him from the one simple task.
That one simple task that everyone in the Corps was charged with. Protect humanity, lay down your life for its cause and all it believes in.
It seemed simple, even if the blades in your hands felt heavy and cold, your face sprayed with the gore of your best friend, even if it seemed impossible we never stopped.
Especially him, he was always so so strong even if he seemed to break. His angry, rageful character never once calming down in the fight to be human again.
The memories I held were deep, embedded into my skin through scars, woven through my mind like thin strands of sand paper.
Each new string of sand paper was another wing lost to the cause of humanity, grinding, filing away at the pure and joyful concept of sanity.
Yet my mind was glued together, cracked, solidly shattered, absolutely inevitably sour, held together by the glue that was my sunshine.
They took a lot from me, my friends, my family, those damned titans.
First my squad, Petra, Mike and Oluo, all at once. Torn away like a fresh bandage on a painfully old wound.
Then Erwin, the man I looked up to, a solid foundation for the whole Corps and all its hope found in the shade of blue in his eyes, and the strong stature of his stand.
That too was clipped away like a broken flower on a perfectly pruned plant.
Him and I stayed together then, barely leaving each other's side.
Him being Eren Jeager, the tall, bratty beautiful human that was known as my boyfriend.
Truly he was a light to us all, his kisses were sweet, his hugs strong.
His hands like those of a pot maker, coarse, rough but steady, filling in the cracks and reparing me slowly.
His body was that of a warrior, lean, strong, scarred and battle worn. Yet, nothing different to my own, just...Much more pure.
Everything about him made me feel the strange emotion he taught me to be love, opening my eyes, causing me to smile.
Sandpaper is horrible against the skin, it digs in and takes everything good about it away.
