Is this feeling real?

Part 4

"Well, yes. it was brilliant, I had to share it with someone who could make your vision come true." He handed me my cup of coffee. After the fear of people not liking my writing left, I was filled with joy. Christian and I talked for an hour before leaving to take a walk. The streets were busy with cars and the sidewalks equally as busy with people. 

 I started arguing with Christian, about life stuff. He really got on my nerves about power and stuff like that.  I wasn't watching where I was going and started walking right into the street. Christian grabed my shoulders and pulled me back to safety. "You could've killed yourself, are you mad?" He stared into my eyes, and for a second I thought he was going to kiss me. "I can't." He whispered to him self. 

"You can't what?" I asked he still held a tight grip on my shoulders.

"I need to stay away from you." He said letting go and walking away. I watched him, he  needs to stay away from me? I didn't ask him to to go to coffee with me I didn't ask for him to walk into my life. That was on him. I walked home and sat on the couch with Mia, 

"Hey, girly." She said sharing the blanket with me. 

"We have finals Tuesday." I grabbed my book and went into my room. I studied the rest of the day, Christian texted me a couple times but I ignored. The next day I stayed home and studied, I didn't have class and Stephen gladly took my shift. I was so tired I just wanted finals to be over. 

 "We, finished!" Ryan hugged me and Mia as we left the school.

"This calls for a celebration. I'm going to call Stephan an tell him we're going to the bar for a last college student rave." I rolled my eyes, a rave of four? It was about 12:00 am and the bar was packed with people from my college. "Shots!" Mia called out as she lined them up on the table. "Come on Em!" She yelled over the music." 

"I don't think.."

"EMMY, it's our last night as real college students. Lets make the night count." Stephan said pushing the drinks at me. I sighed and smiled. 

"That's my girl!" Ryan yelled as I drank four shots. A little later when I was defiantly drunk I really had to pee. 

"Guys i'm I'mma go takkke a peee." I slurred as I made my way to the bathrooms. Their was a few girls waiting in front of me to use the bathroom so I looked through my phone under contacts. ~Christian Grey~ I read, "Ugh, goodbye sir.." I was about to delete his number, but then I had a stupid idea. I called him.

"Amara? I texted you a couple days ago.." I cut him off. 

"Christian Mr.Grey, I have a feww word I'd like to say to youuu. You're a bossy control freak, who thinks he's so cool with his mysterious personality. Amara stay, no. no. Go Away. And I don't need your friendzz in "high" placedez. Thank you very much." 

"Amara are you drunk?" I rolled my eyes. 

"What? Noooooooo, Im as sober as a kitty cat. Ruff." I barked into the phone. 

"Where are you, I'm coming to get you." I looked at the lady next to me and laughed. she was not amused. 

"Im in a bar, i don't know close to the shop. Btu don't you dare try and pick me up cause I will not have.." he hung up on me. "Ugh, dick hole." 

"Em you okay you look a little dizzy." Stephan said walking me out side. 

"Yeah, I'm good. Just need son air." I said patting his chest. 

"Look Em, I really like you." He said holding my waist. 

"I lick you too," I smiled and tried to get him to let go.I was dizzy and barley was able to get words to form in my mouth. 

"No, I like you more than just a friend." He tried to kiss me. 

"Wow, man stop." He didn't listen. he kept trying to pull me in his grip got tight around me, That's when Someone punched him in the face. that someone was Christian. 

"Get out of here!" He yelled, He turned to me. "Are you okay? Lets go." he said holding me up. 

"I can't leave without Mia." I mumbled. 

"She's with my brother its fine." My head started to spin and I threw up. 

I woke up the next morning in a bed, that wasn't mine. I looked on the night stand, Their were two pills with a note next to them that read ~eat me~ and a glass of water that said ~drink me~ I did and looked around. where ever I was it was super nice and looked super expensive. I looked down at my clothes that weren't my clothes. I was in a white button down shirt, and nothing else. Christian walked into the room and looked at me. "I brought you breakfast. He buttered the the toast and put the plate in front of me on the bed. 

"Did we.." He smirked. 

"No, we didn't have sex," He looked down at the plate. "Eat." 

"You undressed me?" i asked nervous. 

"You were covered in vomit. So yes, I didn't touch you in the way you're thinking though." I took a deep breath and relaxed a little more. I bit into the toast and looked up again. He was taking off his shirt and I couldn't help but stare, He looked at me then crawled on the bed, I stopped chewing and took a hard swallow, he bit into the toast and got up. It was the most intense moment I've had with Christian and it was very intimidating. he left and I heard the shower turn on behind me, I finished my breakfast and put on the clothes sitting in the chair next to the window. that's when I realized I was in a hotel. "Ready?" Christian was changed into something nicer than what he'd had on before. 

"Ready for what?" I asked turning toward him. he bit his lip and stared at me. I felt self conscious 

"To go to your apartment." He said opening the door for me. We got in the elevator and it was just me and him. my back was against one of the walls and I could feel him staring at me. "Fuck it." He said and kissed me. He held my hands against the wall and I kissed back. It was a very intense pleasure, he picked me up and held me their, when I tried to move my arms he would pin them back down. we heard the ding of the elevator and he let go of me, the doors opened and a asian family got in. I fixed my hair and looked straight ahead, *What the hell was that?* I asked myself, I refused to look at him. I just bit my lip and waited to get to the lobby.